Do I hate my job? Or do I just hate the concept of working for the rest of my life?
I've been thinking of a career change because I hate my job, but I'm worried the actual reason is because I dread the concept of working to survive for the rest of my life. How do people tell the difference?
My current job has good pay (~90k), nice coworkers and managers, good benefits, and is indoors/is a "cushy" office job. I feel ungrateful for being miserable, but I'm constantly angry at work because of the frustrations, crying about work, or exhausted after work/during the weekends to the point i just lay and do nothing all weekend. Everything I do feels meaningless.
I was thinking about switching careers for a job that I personally think might have more fullfilment/meaning/purpose (environmental/healthcare) or something I have an affinity for (creative work). It would require me to get an associates degree or start from scratch/entry level at the very least (I have a non-STEM degree, and not in the creative arts). I'm worried of taking the jump if I will continue to be miserable - just this time with a worse job with less pay, worse benefits, more debt, wasted time, etc.
What if it's not the job, and just the hopelessness of knowing I will have to continue to do this for the rest of my life? If that's the case, I might as well just stay at the current job.
Notes: While I have impulsively thought of this a few times, I will not be quitting my job with no plan. I do have depression, but I am on medication for it. I feel content during breaks (I sometimes take a week staycation to recharge) so I personally feel the above emptiness/exhaustion is specifically because of the job and not just life in general.