r/AdderallAddiction

Hi.

I am in my 40s and I was officially diagnosed with adhd in 2023.

I do have adhd. But I had learned to function perfectly well with it with no help.

Then, towards the end of 2023, a friend was getting some Adderall and I asked for one.

I had never taken it before and I was just tired and wanted to get through a shift. That first one was an ir, it was 30 mg and I only took half. I could still feel effects 10 hours later.

Since that day, almost 3 years ago, I have gone maybe a total of 7 days without any. I pretty quickly got my own prescription, then got it upped as high as my dr is willing to go.

Obviously, that wasn't sufficient for long. So I've been buying it. A lot of it.

On any given day, I take 120-200mg. I haven't slept longer than 6 hours in a very long time. It's usually more like 4. I still eat because I make myself.

I had amphetamine induced psychosis about a year and a half ago. it was a solid 2 weeks (maybe more, time was weird) of absolutely bat shit behavior. like I thought people were poisoning me, spying on me, I even tried to file a restraining order. then one day I just was me again.

I did see a psych at that point, but did not disclose my Adderall usage.

I couldn't even begin to tell you how much I took today. A lot. But I wasn't counting because I have a new script and I'm not rationing.

I am aware that this is not sustainable. I know I need to quit. But I also know what I've read about quitting. I have kids and a high pressure, high stress job that requires me to be on top of my game 24/7.

How do I manage all of this without Adderall? I was doing it before. But I've changed my brain chemistry

The last time I didn't have any for a day, I was MISERABLE. Like couldn't get off the couch, zero motivation, zero attention span, less than zero energy, irritated, and exhausted.

I can't do that every day.

Realistically, how long does that last? And is there anything I can do to make it better?

Please tell me what worked for you.

I can't keep going like this. I've spent so much money. And probably already destroyed my heart.

Please help.

Delete if not allowed.

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These ADHD med shortages are making me crazy

Need 20+ addy Need 20 bars

Hopefully these pharmacies can get their act togeth

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day 1 trying to cut my stim intake. was taking 2-3 vyvanse or 2-3 adderall xr and ir’s on top of that. it got to a point where 100mg of vyvanse would do nothing for me. id take 50mg and feel the exact same.

im cold turkeying and thought id post in this sub to let other people going thru the same thing know that its all going to be okay and that we’re in this together. yes, i doom scrolled and had no energy and cried my eyes out, but im going to unfry these damn receptors. any advice (supplements to take etc) would be appreciated. wishing everyone a blessed night 🫶

Hey guys , I’m on about day 30 without any adderall cold turkey after about 1 year of heavy use , and I feel worse today then I ever have, even while coming off a binge, is this normal? I feel like I’m in a psychosis or manic state, no sleep and when I close my eyes it’s literally like a trip, flashing Color’s , powerful brainzaps, racing thoughts. Tried taking a few tiny doses of Valium and zopiclone to settle myself, nothing. Does it really get better ?

Long story short - many years back, I went 36-40 hours without sleep, about 240mg of adderall, a ton of coffee and nicotine. I started feeling really weird and the had the feeling that I was absolutely losing my mind. It was the ultimate definition of “impending doom”. My first panic attack, or something like it.

I haven’t been the same since. On and off anti depressants, trying to find a way to lower my fear of having another attack.

I feel like that one stimulant binge ruined me.

Anyone have similar experience and been able to make it through to healing? I literally went on an SSRI a few days after that out of doctors concern. I’m wondering if I would have just let my system heal back to baseline, if I would have been better off.