r/CBTpractice

I’ve just had my second session CBT (remotely), and honestly I think I feel worse coming out of it than I did going in.

My tasks for ending my first session to talk through in my second session. Were to go through and create my own vicious cycles and identify the factors. I created two as I didn’t feel everything fell into one. Also to have three goals to work on within the sessions.

This session we’ve gone through both of the vicious cycles and he’s noted all the things I’ve noted on them also my goals.

He’s then asked that between now and the next session I keep a symptom diary to pinpoint thoughts, feelings & symptoms and to question why I’m feeling that way; reflect on them. Question what I think is going wrong in this vicious cycle.

And honestly, I’ve brought somethings up in my cycles that I barely speak to anyone about. Especially someone I don’t know. So feelings and emotions are raw and I feel like I’m uprooting those thoughts and feelings for then the session to just end…I feel like I’ve almost been left exposed, bare and dealing with the upheaval of these feelings and emotions….am I doing the wrong therapy?

Had a pretty bad appointment yesterday with a mental health nurse who wanted to assess me for cbt, she didn’t seem to read my file, and made poor deductions which didn’t reflect me or what I said. I felt I wasn’t listened to. I was told by my psychiatrist to be out on cbt right away a month ago. But the mental nurse, she didn’t exactly tell me what was happening, and told me she would be doing talking therapy with me, i have done counselling before, and have seen a psychiatrist previously. It’s rather at this point annyoing having to repeat things i over came, but even worse to someone who wasn’t listening to me, and made some rather wrong and far fetched conclusions and unrelated questions.

I remember feeling unsure, and rather angry after leaving the appointment, and didn’t feel i could get on with my day. Not only that she wanted to assess myself and my relationships, and i honestly didn’t feel comfortable talking to them with her as she was rather blunt, intrusive and rather pressed me. I understand that some practitioners are that way, but this isn’t easy for me to open up, and i had to force myself to do that.

I wanted to phone my psychiatrist that I didn’t feel ok continuing with the person who wanted to do cbt.

Just today i felt rather sick, and bed ridden.