Creativity and Innovation Ruined Me (AKA The Unfinished Projects Problem
NGL I got 47 unfinished sketches on my tablet and 12 demos in my DAW just rotting away like digital corpses. And yeah, I know I'm not alone - half this sub probably has a graveyard of half-baked ideas too. But man, it's eating me alive.
Here's the thing: the moment an idea hits - that spark of artistic expression or inventive thinking—I'm completely obsessed. My brain goes into hyperdrive. That's when I actually remember why is creativity important in the first place. It's the only time I feel alive, you know? It's the only time the depression fog lifts and I think "oh shit, I could actually make something." But then...
Then the work starts. And the moment it gets hard - the moment I need to render, mix, color-correct, polish—I'm gone. Vanished. Suddenly every other project looks better. Suddenly THIS project feels like complete garbage, like I'm just wasting time. So I pivot. New idea. New excitement. New heartbreak two weeks later.
I've tried calling it different things - artistry, inventiveness, ingenuity. I've looked up all the synonyms for creativity: originality, resourcefulness, imagination. Funny how all those fancy creativity words just mean the same thing when you're sitting there with a half-finished piece wondering why you can't just... finish. Why can't I just push through like actual artists do?
The irony is that creativity and innovation are supposed to be my escape, right? They're supposed to be where I go when the real world is too much. But instead they've become another thing I'm failing at. Another area where I'm not good enough. I swear perfectionism is a disease, and I'm terminal.
So what I'm really asking: how do you guys actually cross the finish line? How do you push past that "this sucks" moment and actually ship something? Or are we all just doomed to have these graveyards of unfinished dreams?
Because honestly, I'm not sure how much longer I can keep doing this cycle. My creativity feels more like a curse at this point.