Is watching true crime so often affecting me more than I know I genuinely care for it and have intrest
I’ve watched true crime my whole life and it’s the r ONLY thing I can watch for hours and give my full attention to I have adhd so that’s very out of the norm for me now that I’m older I genuinely do love it and think of possibly want get into death investigation in the future it comforts me and makes me feel like I’m learning alot and can handle something so strong but helpful for others its something i seem to really care for even tho sometimes I feel like it weighs on me SOMETIMES only when I’m doing kind of bad mentally I feel like It stays in my head a lot more than usual it makes me a bit more paranoid and have intrusive thoughts that are obviously horrific I keeping wondering as of late if this is making an impact on me in a really negative way without me realizing it I have bpd and have been having issues lately with a lot of things in life I just can’t help but wonder is it possible this is more harm than good even tho it makes me feel comfort and I feel actual care which idc for much in the world I do want to clarify when I watch these body cams and cases I feel so sad I feel like I want justice I want them to be heard I feel so much care I don’t enjoy it see it in a weird manner I see it in a real manner but I still wonder is it messing with me as well when I’m having a harder time mentally which can be often