r/CyberYamu

Heliosis is a state I have gotten in quite a bit over the summer. When I stay out to long with the sun shining on my head, everything just kinda changes. For one my perception of the world become quite different, like much more brighter. I already wear sunglasses, since I am more sensitive to light than the average person and can get headaches just from that. But heliosis makes even those obsolete.
When in heliosis my thought patterns also dissolve, becoming much less organized. Mental processes just randomly start and stop and there is constant switching between them. My movement becomes less coherent with it. The control over my volume becomes even worse than normal. When I'm with people, I apparently regress into child-like behavior. So far this hasn't paired with loss of motor control - be that just collapsing or dissociation. (I have experienced both independently.) I also saw a demon-looking creature during one episode, which frightened me quite a bit. When I told my psychologist, she didn't really believe what I was saying, even tho I tried to explain what reality means to her. (I made a post about this on here before.) She also told me that this could be the onset on some sort of schizo thing. I hope this isn't the case and luckily it hasn't happened since.
One of the most interesting parts is however, that during heliosis, I am unable to determine that I am in heliosis. Similar how in a dream it's hard to tell that you are dreaming. This has lead me to call it sun-psychosis, since it is caused by the sun (or at least correlates with it) and from what I know one of the important aspects of psychosis is that the person in psychosis doesn't understand that they are indeed in psychosis.

Does anyone else have a similar experience with this?

Who decides which language your inner voice chooses? I’ve always wondered how people who speak multiple languages navigate between them.

Her Polish accent is gorgeous, though—I definitely wouldn’t mind hearing more Polish!