By Silent Right
The clock on the wall rations the silence.
Tick. Tock.
Time is a loose concept. The rhythm, though—the rhythm is cold, mechanical, and honest.
I live in the basement shadows. I’ve made a home out of her floorboards since we ended. Above me, her footsteps map the ceiling: tick, tock. She is punctual. A creature of perfect, predictable gears. She rises, she walks, she pours her coffee, she sleeps.
Tick. Tock.
I know the exact weight of her step. I know her better than she knows herself. We exist in a flawless, quiet symbiosis—the host and the parasite, breathing the same air, separated only by joists and plaster. She has no idea I am here.
2:00 AM. Sleep is a luxury I don't own. I lie in the dark, remembering the taste of her, the way we used to be before the collapse. Now, we only have this.
Tick. Tock.
Then, the rhythm breaks. Her floorboards creak out of turn.
I hold my breath. The dust motes freeze in the dark. The clock seems to choke on its own gear.
CRACK.
The front door splinters.
A raw, territorial venom floods my throat. They have breached the sanctuary. These men—loud, clumsy, stupid—have stepped into a house that already belongs to me by silent right. They are trespassing on my obsession.
I freeze, paralyzed for a heartbeat. Then her scream cuts through the floorboards, only to be choked off mid-breath. Two male voices, coarse and jagged, tear through her quiet. I hear the violent, metallic rip of duct tape. I hear the wet, heavy crack of a palm hitting flesh. I hear her muffled, desperate whimpers.
My mind snaps clean off its hinges.
Suddenly, I am looking at myself from the ceiling. The world goes flat, virtualized, a cold 3D render. The noise of the assault drops into a deep, underwater hush. My body moves on autopilot. My hands find the metal box in the corner. The .22 pistol is light, freezing, and familiar. I glide up the wooden steps, weightless, a ghost reclaiming his haunt.
I reach the top of the stairs. What is happening in the bedroom is a stain on my sanity. She is bound, treated like a discarded doll, her eyes wide with a terror that screams through her gag.
I am entirely outside of myself now. A spectator. The small .22—quiet, surgical, merciless—fires. A dull pop into the first man's neck. He drops like wet clay.
The second one freezes, his hands slick with her sweat. He looks up, realizing too late that death didn't come through the broken front door. It crawled out of the floor. He opens his mouth to beg, staring at the shadow before him.
I press the muzzle against his forehead. The trigger gives. A dry snap silences the plea.
The silence that follows is deafening. The only sound is the wet, heavy rattle of their dying breaths on the hardwood. The barrel of the gun is hot. It tempts my temple. I want to pull the trigger again. I want to shoot myself. I want to shoot her, too, just to keep her safe from ever being touched again.
But I don't.
If I take one step into the bedroom, the yellow light will hit my face. She will see me. She will see the man she thinks is gone forever, standing over two corpses, drenched in their blood. The illusion would shatter. The symbiosis would die.
To keep her, I must remain a myth.
I step backward, letting the hallway darkness swallow me whole. I don't touch her. I walk to the kitchen, lift the receiver with the edge of my sleeve, and dial.
"Double homicide," I tell the dispatcher, my voice flat, dead, and steady. "Self-defense. There is a bound woman upstairs. Send help."
I hang up. Behind me, she is screaming through the tape, begging her savior to come back. But I am already gone, watching my own escape through a cold, distant lens. I take the keys. I drive into the black gut of the highway. I drift between cheap, neon-lit motels. I watch the news. I listen to the anchor talk about the "mysterious guardian angel," and I turn off the static.
The clock in her house stopped in the blood. But here, on the ceiling of this cheap room, the rhythm finds me again.
Tick. Tock.
It beats inside my skull. A reminder of a connection that is now permanent.
They never looked for me. They never blamed me. I committed atrocities that night, but it wasn't really me in that room.
Still... I would do it all over again.