Muslim man and confused girl what should I do?
So I (21f) and let’s call him O (22M) haven’t spoken in quite a while due to us ending our toxic childish cycle from around 5 years ago. I’m kinda newly single and missed him a bit so I messaged him and we clicked instantly. I found out he lives near me too which was crazy now.
The first time we spoke I went over, the vibes were good it just felt so natural. One thing lead on to a next we started kissing, he kept on saying your the only girl that can get this out of me (he has been celibate for 2 years due to his deen) then he expressed how he wanted to have sex and because we had done it in the past I wanted too as well. We endded up doing it multiple times and I stayed over. This kept happening for a few days then he told me we have to stop due to him feeling like he has no control, he’s breaking his celibacy and his deen too. He expressed how he has done this before with 2 other women but he didn’t actually like or feel anything towards them but with me it’s different and how it’s even distracting him from prayer sometimes. He’s expressed to be our connection is different so much times and the emotions he feels basically. The night after that when we woke up we spoke more about it and he said he wants to take me out do normal things.
Another thing I want to add one time after he has finished doing the doo he asked me what is it between us and said something that was like ‘if your serious I am’ we even briefly spoke about marriage and he was saying how he’d want to get married young.
Anyways we kept speaking but he’s started a new job too but he’s went ghost for 4 days.
He explained to me prior how he will be going ghost for a bit and due me being solid I can know before he does and how this month or next month when he’s active he will take me out and we can do something. He also told me to stay on my stuff and don’t get distracted by other men but him.
I actually do like him and see a future with him. I’m not a Muslim woman however I used to be, I was brought up Muslim from birth however when my parents split I just pulled away from religion like my mother.
What do you guys think? Is there potential? I would get married to him lol ! Sounds crazy