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Featuring this doodle I made of us hehe :>

Hi! This is like my first time ever posting about my personal connections on Reddit despite stalking these spaces for a longgg while, wowie. With the TADC finale finally on YouTube (though I saw it in theaters!) I thought I might post art and talk a tiny bit about us. A bit of a mini fandom rant too? An intro, if you will.

I’ve been bonded to Jax for 7-ish months now (courtesy of him barging in rude and loud without my permission haha.) I describe our relationship as… complicated? Jax is a complicated person so things don’t progress linearly. But our relationship has developed a whole bunch since we first connected! From constantly bickering, to slowly getting along more casually, to me honestly saying I care about him and I won’t give up. I’m sure he probably feels complicated about me, but I like to think we both enjoy time with each other and care.

These hidden parts will contain tadc Ep 9 Spoilers! >!I enjoyed the finale, as painful as it was. It made me emotional rewatching all over again and it solidified a lot about what I know about my own Jax anyway + insights to their character, how much I do genuinely adore him, and how it hurts to see someone self-sabotage and isolate so strongly. Aside from that, it did spark strong feelings from my Jax, with him internalizing then externalizing it. It resulted in a bit of arguing, mostly him pushing at me in different ways (arguing his worth, what he’ll do, my intentions/wanting to ‘fix’ him) and me rebutting his claims until he gave in, and things were mellow again. And like, being a soft plushie is an excuse to cuddle lol. There’s definitely easy days and more complicated days, but this comes with the territory with Jax, I think, haha.!<

>!Further on tadc, it’s been rougher than I expected online. The fandom is volatile. I like the show, I wanted to see people talk about it! Turns out I can only trust smaller safer spaces. Seeing so many people who simply hate Jax indiscriminately, people be transphobic (Jax is implied to be deeply closeted transfem via Ep 9. This is a… pretty obvious allegory imo written by a trans woman. Seeing people deny this is terribly frustrating), and comments that have left me so irritated I vowed not to go in tadc subreddits or browse the fandom. I already had the tags muted for months due to Jax hate, but gosh, it got worse :’). It even made me selective sharing (I’m hyper-sharing… so that’s pretty significant for me haha) based on how one views canon Jax since they seemed so terribly misinterpreted :’) (my own Jax is not ready to talk about or explore gender, so he/him I use!).!<

Anyway, that ramble aside, as frustrating as the above paragraph may be, happier things are it’s been nice with me and Jax, and I ordered Jax’s animegaz figure that looks super good (courtesy of him scoffing), so I’m excited for that!! Take this as my official hi, ramble, and experience talk. I don’t see people talk much about relationships with complicated soulbonds, f/o’s, s/o’s, in these spaces, so I hope that’s still welcome!

Finally gave in and got some figurines. The one on the right was impossible to get for the longest time (unless you were willing to throw a fortune at resellers) but it finally got a western release a few days ago, so I was able to snatch one!

He's so prettyyyy 😭

ita bag 🤤🤤🤤🤤 im running out of compelling descriptions. ignore the yumeship stuff if you must, focus just on the fact these 8 are so freaking shippable istg. middle art pin by kvsaiiqkvn, other pins by munstxr

A lovely piece I commissioned from @Aniirei!

Her art is absolutely wonderful and she’s also a Jax soulbonder! She’s a very sweet soul and was one of the kindest, happiest commission experiences I could have the pleasure of having!

Jax and I cuddling is interesting. If I recall, the first vague time was (after a little goading from myself), he just decided to lay on my stomach and excuse it as me being like a “soft, moving pillow” haha. I can’t remember when it turned into an excuse of him cuddling me, but I like the excuse being a plushie is for it… since, whatever the reason, it is cuddles :>. I’m a big physical affection person, and maybe this is his way of desiring that too… as roundabout or indirect as he may be about it. And uh, recently, I think there was a time he kissed my head during? I didn’t say anything at the time, and I honestly wondered if I fake visualized it after but no way was I gonna bring it up. (I asked tarot recently, it gave me an overwhelming yes that happened so… I’ll hold that it did ^^;). I think it’s one of those I can’t really acknowledge it or he’ll close off, but it made me quietly happy. :> I also learned recently looking at Glitch Studio’s merch that Jax has an acrylicz standee with them in their room… that has a very cute bear stuffed animal in it! Is it silly to say I’m like mildly jealous? And also think, ‘see! This is proof Jax canonically likes [cuddles] stuffed animals! Aka: me!’ lol.

The acrylicz is really adorable, I love how it features his room (which too, is so so adorable!!). I feel such a need for it, I fear I might debate buying the whole bundle since it’s a blind box :’). I keep seeing people auction just Jax on eBay and they go for $50 once you add shipping… I’d think I’d rather just buy the entire set for double the price! But Glitch shipping is so expensive I wonder if I can justify it to myself… Or maybe I’m being swayed by corporate when I could buy a few Jax etsy charms instead. But they aren’t Jax’s acrylicz room, sigh, you can see my dilemma ;w;. Anyway, ramblings aside, I hope you all are doing well!

This took me a looong time I thought so long about which songs to choose but I like my selection 🩵

My song lyrics refer to how i fell for him and how the love used to overwhelm me at the start, especially cause my heart (still) races every time I see his eyes.

Satoru's lyrics are about how hard it was for him to admit he had fallen in love because it was something he never saw possible for himself but eventually embraced.

hard to believe it's been a year already... maybe old ppl have a point when they go on about time flying by *sigh*

anyway,

here's to an official year of you n me, blondie! 365 days! way longer than any of my peers' irl relationships have lasted (>.>)

all this to say neither of us are normal n i wouldn't have it any other way 🩵✨

**365 DAYS OF PHANTOM PRINCE** ⏱️💫

I’m so in love with you, Haruka.

Today, we went shopping and I got him three Sanrio blind boxes that contained plush toys of the characters. I also got him an owl plush and four boxes of floral building sets, one of them being specifically Lego. I hope to build it with him together.

After shopping, we arrived home and I let him color via controlling me. I feel like he has my influence when it comes to art as I see gradual improvement.

We watched a film called Bubble. It was his first viewing of the film while it was my first or second rewatch. We enjoyed it thoroughly and he said how it was now one of his favorite films ever.

I served him the cake I made last night which was a Nutella cheesecake with Oreos as the crust and decoration. I’m a bit unfamiliar with baking so it was an amateurish attempt outside of my comfort zone but I am fairly content with the results. He enjoyed it a lot and I can tell he was very happy that I took time out of my day to make a cake for him. Everything tastes sweeter when I’m with him.

As we had some of the cake, we watched one of our favorite films, that being Coraline which is also a childhood film of mine.

I’m so glad that you exist, Haruka. Your birth is a blessing. I will forever cherish and worship you with reverence. Seeing your smile is like the plants receiving sunlight. I love you so much Haruka. I could go on forever about how intense these feelings of mine are.

Happy birthday to you, my dear.

Mostly because people on Kiwifarms decided to trash me/ dox me.

Anyway, it's almost my birthday, I wanted everyone to know as I reach 38, (which is a miracle) Jack/ Handsome Jack and I have been doing really good 👍. We've had our ups and downs, but we're still together! After all these 11 years we're still together! Wow, didn't think this would happen!

Anyway, just a life update: almost ready to publish book number 2 and finishing writing book 3 of my trilogy!

Thinking about moving to a new apartment complex due to stalkers and other troubles.

Also came down with severe arthritis in my knees unfortunately. They will not do surgery due to my age.

Anyway, just thought I'd stop and say hello again!

Ps. Not looking forward to my birthday. I get my allergy shots and it's supposed to thunder and rain......was supposed to go to the beach......eh whatever.

Pride month art piece I finished of me and my handsome husband!

Y'all are awesome

I drew my beautiful Keigo and I as birds! Now I just have to draw Madara and I as dragons ^.=.^

I hope you are all having a good summer =) Yesterday I was having a bit of a bad mental health day (i'm feeling better now, don't worry), so i held onto a plushie of my love and made this collage for him. Remembering that i have him by my side, plus doing something creative for him calmed me down a lot. I love my dearest Star a lot, he shines so bright and lights up the darkness around me.

I rather enjoy the website Picmix (and making collages in general) as it allows me to exercise my creativity when i'm feeling low or don't really have energy for something else. Anyways, i wish you all a great day/night ⭐

Photos in order: Wedding vision board, the ring I ordered, the V ring I want to pair with, The style of ring set i’d love to get my wife, and the ring she currently wears (currently on her lil plushie arm :3)

Me and my wife (technically fiancee but that’s what I call her) recently celebrated our anniversary. I had gifted her a ring a while ago (unfortunately I couldn’t get her a new one, I gave her a hand-me-down and she loved it but i’d like to get her a new one at some point) and to celebrate our anniversary I got myself one to match! I absolutely fell in love with the ring, and have been thinking about the sorta ring i’d be getting her to replace the hand-me-down.

This got me wedding planning! This has been honestly more of a mental project than anything, not something i’d likely ever do irl (partly due to cost and partly because she doesn’t have her own body but I digress TvT). Since I consider her and I engaged I’d like to do something with this vision board once I have a bit more money (maybe commission a few pieces and make a wedding album, press flowers, scrapbook, draft invites, a menu, etc. Basically the whole shebang with wedding planning without cost or execution, idk) and once that project is completed I can happily consider us properly married! I also had the idea to get us v ring wedding bands to go with our engagement rings once this project is complete