r/JinxTheManhwa

I came across this photo on Pinterest, and do you guys see what i see or??? 😳😳😳

for anyone jumping to conclusion that this is a stereotype. This is just what i think as someone that reads jinx, and yea obviously no one can look identical to a 2d character 🤷‍♀️. lets not be hostile with every little detail, you can share your own look alike without beeing an A 💜.

Actor's name : Luke Ishikawa (american-japanese origins)

We wouldn’t have believed it if we had been told a few weeks ago that Jaekyung would cry, that he would collapse in front of the gym dudes or that, given the circumstances, he would say something like “I’m not going to move from here until Kim Dan wakes up.” and that he only agreed to let them help him stand up to go to the fight, after hearing coach Josep say the doctor wanted him out to fight. All that, totally abandoning the care of his physique, everything, his training, his hygiene, his diet, his complete jinx!, head down as he put it, regardless of who saw him or heard him. But, as incredible as it is, that happened, we all saw it, it's canon, so we accept it as a reality.

the Jaekyung we've known all these years isn't that, but the thing is, we don't know Jaekyung.

So far, the only moments of his life when Jaekyung was himself, were his worst moments, Jaekyung was an orphan with living parents. There in what he called home, being just a child, he unfortunately had to expect the inevitable every time his biological father returned to that house. In those moments there was no point in reacting differently, mounting a performance, because even, of having done so, it would only have provoked the opposite effect of what Jaekyung was looking to achieve with what he was doing, which was not receiving those blows. He simply stayed there, motionless and silent until it all happened, to then be able to cry in silence until he fell asleep.

The day Jaekyung was discovered by director Hwang stealing milk, he was very scared, another big and strong adult grabbed him, maybe Jaekyung thought this one would hit him too, but he quickly did what he was used to doing outside his house door, he put on a mask, in this case, the mask of fearless, rough, aggressive child, ready to fight. And please don't get me wrong, Jaekyung had courage, you have to have it to survive in the life circumstances he was in and without any support, but every time he exercised that courage, Jaekyun had to decide, we saw it in that first encounter with Director Hwang, at the moment when his little faced goes from fear to a defensive and aggressive atttitud.

Jaekyung learned to wear masks very early to survive because no one was with him, nobody cared about him. The morning when he decided to buy the wardrobe for Dan, at one point Jaekyung remembered that the clothes he himself wore as a kid, he picked up on the streets himself, probably from the trash. No one ever gave him anything, we can tell by his reaction when the director's mother touched his head that first time she gave him food , by those wide-eyes said it all, surprised to have received something good from a strange person for the first time.

And yet Jaekyung survived six years, before that first encounter with director Hwang, with his masks.

There are people who feel complacent about something they are experiencing, but react as if it is something that gives them no satisfaction and even displeases them, which is not good, and emphasize the fact that, according to them, it happens that way because the person in charge doesn’t do their job well. They’re supposedly in a bad mood, they complain, they insult, they don't usually thank anybody, many, as is the case with Jaekyung, don't even greet anybody, it's a destructive attitude, both for whoever has it and for those around them.

In many cases, what people who behave that way do, is assume an attitude of dissatisfaction to maintain a hard facade because they are afraid of someone seeing weakness in them, I always thought this is what happens with Jaekyung. And I confirmed it when after visiting the grandmother, in the cold beach scene, he told Dan he didn’t want anyone to know about his past so he wouldn’t be perceived as a weak person.

Masks can protect, even for a long time, but the problem is that when people don't express their true being because, like in Jaekyung's case, they have to keep them even from a very young age, they don't manage to recognize themselves, they don't know how they really are, he’s immersed in that character of the successful fighter who is tough, even in personal dealings, to the extreme in which when confronted about the reason he seeks him or if he wants anything more than sex from him, by the person he has come to love more than anyone else in the world, he doesn’t know what to say because he doesn’t know, he doesn’t understand love, no one has ever given it to him in that way and he has never felt it like that for anyone else. That’s why he hasn’t say I love you to Dan, not even that night when he stayed with Dan until he woke up after surgery, so far what we know is that he apologized to him many times, gently squeezing his hand.

Jaekyung could have been honest with himself and with Dan about the sexual part of their time from the beginning and allow Dan to be, even teach him to know himself sexually, but by keeping that mask of tough male thinking of no one but himself, he so far missed out on enjoying a Dan that made him nose bleed from pleasure and lost the opportunity to enjoy something that even if it had only been sexual, would have been exponentially better, they could have lived a more intense, not so restricted sexual experience. But that topic is for another essay.

Besides that, currently at the height of chapter one hundred, already Jaekyung has started to realize that if he takes off the mask and doesn’t force whoever he is with to wear one, even the sex is better. Jaekyung has come to love Dan in a deep way and sex with him has become a necessity that makes him live something very special, beyond sex for fun every time they are together. And sex just for fun, always between adults and responsibly is excellent, but if there is an emotional connection in certain circumstances it can be better. Before this change, for example, the night of the glasses, after he made Dan experience a pleasure he didn't know just by touching his chest, when he saw that Dan, although embarrassed, had face of being enjoying himself, he told Dan to restrain himself. Or maybe, yeah, I'm doing all this to you, but don't enjoy it too much. He didn't want to see Dan's pleasure face for the same, he was afraid that Dan would believe there was some connection between them, because he didn't want to see anyone enjoying anything in front of him because he understood the others would perceive him as someone weak and maybe use that to overstep some of the boundaries he had imposed on them emotional dictatorship.

Still Jaekyung doesn't raise that dictatorship with everyone, not even with the same Dan who does believe he has seen Jaekyung 's true face as when the other day he told him that if he wanted to leave so much, the door was there, no, that's not Jaekyung either, how nervous that made him when after having bought rings, roses and cake, then he was petrified in his self thinking about how Dan would react when he presented him with those gifts, after having spoken to him so badly.

From so much use, the mask of aggression is very attached to Jaekyung. I don’t know how the author will do to deliver to us that man that will treat Dan with the delicacy, affection and respect Dan deserves in private and in public, in front of other people, known or unknown because there would be no change if he just treated him well behind closed doors and to do so at all times, Jaekyung must let himself be seen without masks.

We don't know Jaekyung but don't feel bad about it, he doesn't know himself either.