I’m having anxiety attacks for the past couple of days. My breathing is fast and I am not able to concentrate on work. I feel really stressed. If anyone with professional experience, can you please help?
This is my third manic episode- but this was a public one . all episodes before didnt have psychotic episodes. was mostly delusions
At the end of 2024 I got completely burned out at work. I quit my job without even serving my notice period. Luckily my old company had an opening, so I joined back.
Life suddenly became… good.
There was barely any stress. I had no major tasks to work on. I joined a gym, started going for walks, made a few friends. After being miserable for so long, I was genuinely happy
In hindsight, that huge swing from months of stress to suddenly feeling amazing was probably the beginning.
I started sleeping less and less but never felt tired. I had a hundred startup ideas. I suddenly convinced myself I had feelings for a girl at work. My confidence was through the roof.
Then things escalated.
I was sleeping only a few hours a night. Going on long walks at 2–3 AM. Drinking ridiculous amounts of energy drinks.
Then the delusions kicked in.
I genuinely believed I had superpowers. At one point I thought I could change events by rubbing leaves together. I felt like the universe (or someone) was giving me instructions, so I went on random missions. I stopped going to work. I randomly texted that poor girl from work at 2 AM with whatever made perfect sense in my head at the time.
My roommates eventually caught up, cause I was doing stupid shit like putting all taps open, burning things like waste, watering plants, eating leaves
Long story short, I lost my job.
My parents admitted me to a mental health hospital, where I stayed for about a month.
The most ridiculous part?
I actually escaped.
During playtime I hid from the staff, climbed over what felt like a 12-foot wall, and made it all the way back to my PG room. My roommates immediately called my parents, my parents informed the hospital, and a team of about four staff members came and literally carried me back because I refused to go.
At the time I thought I was the main character in some secret mission. I was posting stupid shit on twitter and instagram
Looking back now… it’s honestly hard to believe that was me.
Before all this, I’d only been diagnosed with ADHD. After this episode, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder as well, and suddenly a lot of things in my life started making sense.
I am currently stable now and can laugh at it, but it also taught me how terrifying mania can be. When you’re in it, everything feels completely logical.
Has anyone else with bipolar had moments that sound absolutely ridiculous in hindsight but felt 100% real during the time
written partly using ai- but events are real
I want to know if anyone has tried with Oppam online therapy.
I am seriously considering re-starting my therapy. Life has become too difficult for me. I have started procrastinating a lot lately. I'm also experiencing random panic attacks. Not the intensive ones. but I can feel the anxiety build up, and heavy breathing that follows.
The doctor I had planned to see, through a reference, is on medical leave. He would not be resuming consultation till August. I don't think I can wait that long.
The news about the recent family suicide is also kind of pushing me. I don't know if you can understand when I say this - I feel motivated to do the act. But, I know I can't do that, so I'm conflicted but safe.
Then I came across Oppam. I don't know if online therapies help that much. Seeking genuine suggestions, reviews and feedbacks.
Im having a feeling that i might be dying soon and its not an intuition.
Got cheated for a whole lot amount by a trusted friend in business… and I think ive come so far that I dnt think i can start over again. I think its always easier to end it here.. got my parents and sibling but i dnt think troubling them with my problems will ever find me peace… iam having this thought that im a failure and i deserve this.
Im already seeing a therapist but its not helping… the same therapist who was very helpful for me previously.
What should i do??
I don't know what to do but it feels like my depression and anxiety are getting worse. I tried so many medicines, therapy, doctors...but nothing has helped. I feel like I'm one bad moment away from doing something bad. I really can't take it anymore.
Has anyone truly recovered from mental health issues like depression, stress and trauma? I'm unable to commit to a therapist or psychiatrist. I feel distant, and fake meeting a handful of therapists in Kochi. "Fake" doesn't mean they are faking their job, but I have this pre-conceived notion that they are just talking artificially to validate me and help me. Would they give the same explanations and advice if I meant something to them really.
Back to the question. I have not many anyone who is cured from their mental health issues. Many dropped off, many still visits even when there is no evident change in them. Or, it could be just my circle of friends, who are not able to keep up timely consultations.
Is there anyone out there who can say, they are cured or at least, are in control of their issues/disorder?
I’m from Kochi, and lately I feel like I’m stuck in a loop.
Every day feels the same. I keep trying, I keep working, and I keep doing my best, but honestly, I don’t even know why anymore.
It feels like I’m running without getting anywhere. People around me seem to be moving forward while I’m standing in the same place, repeating the same cycle again and again.
I haven’t given up yet. I still wake up and do what I have to do. But somewhere along the way, I feel like I lost hope.
Has anyone else felt like this? How did you get out of that loop?