After 4 years btech-Iam a walking corpse
In s1 during 2022 i went to s1 maths tuition and for graphics my graphics sir in college gave me several hours of special class ,But when result came i failed in both.Then i didn't gave revaluation .In my third year
Again i appeared for graphics supply.This time my graphics sir invested many hours with me for several days during xmas vacation even when he was engaged and busy regarding many personal matters including his son's admission .But he even skipped lunch ,picking his wife and all and taught me.I attended well and when result came 24 marks.I applied for revaluation and it changed to 36 marks.
After 3 months he called me to his place again for the next chance.Taught me well and i also studied well but when result came i only got 33 mark.
Today i went to write again.Only i was writing from my batch and some juniors.before exam our sir came to exam hall for encouraging juniors and saw me and was shocked when he saw me.And said you could have come there for studying.During my last supply preparation time when i went there.I recorded his class in my phone for using in case of any doubt for watching and understanding.I told him i have the vedios and i prepared by watching that..
This time i had appeared and i dont know if i will pass or not.Because last 2 time i had full confidence
I failed myself,my parents,my grandmother
When i went to sir's place for 2 time daily it costed me petrol cost of 200 rs.My grandmother gave me money daily for lunch.And everyday they pray for hours .And on my exam days my parents and grandmother will start to pray from morning to evening continuosly.
This time 5 minutes before writing exam i unexpectedly cried.I couldnt handle the weight
This time i also spend 1500 rs for special tuition near my home for 3 modules .Because i wasn't able to ride bike for 1.30 hours continuosly to sir's house
Also its not a place reachable in bus..
I dont know about the result of todays exam
I have hope and no hope at the same time.
Till the result comes i will be having too much weight