Hanggang tingin lang
Merong nag add sa akin sa FB. She's attractive and we have a good number of mutual friends so siyempre accept agad!
Kaka view ng stories niya, naging FB crush ko na siya lol, and this is not like wanting a one-night kind of thing (na mala LF fubu like sa confession sub LOL). Muka siyang serious gf material, and I know she's also single.
I know that's supposed to be a good thing and this looks like a classic kiddie story na "then what are you waiting for?", but this is where the embarrassing part comes in. I'm not really young anymore, and worse, I'm currently broke!
I don't want to get into a relationship knowing hindi ko kayang maging consistent, and siyempre being financially stable plays a big role in that. Magiging unfair lang and waste of time for her or for any woman for that matter.
So I have been trying to control myself from making any contact beyond tingin and like sa stories, eh kaso nagkaron ng time few months ago na nag reply siya sa isang story ko! Patay lol!
So mind over matter, I kept my replies tame, made the conversation short and iwas na sa follow-up questions! Ayoko din kasi gumawa ng move na hindi ko ma follow-up.
Shortly after that, umiwas na muna ako sa patingin-tingin ng stories niya for a time. Pero etong past week, balik sa tingin ulit and this time, pareho pa kaming nag l-like sa mga stories ng isa't isa. Patay!! Ano ba tong imbento ng social media nato! Para akong highschool lol!
Ang haba na pala! No happy ending, unfortunately. The real confession here is being ashamed of being broke. I know I have to work on it so dun na muna ang focus. Yung crush part nakakatawang reminder na lang din of wasted opportunity. For now, hanggang tingin na lang muna.