Relationship advice
This a very long text with evidence i need help pls. Basically tbh we didnt even started right bcz at the beginning i was clear with what i wanted yk i didnt wanted anything but then he js kept trying and i ended up falling for it yk first was the communication for me for things that had happened before its like hella hard to express what i feel to communicate bcz people would always made me feel like my feelings didnt matter making me feel less for feeling certain way so thats when i started trying im like it seems like he actually wants me want me to communicate and all that so i ended up opening up telling him everything that been bothering me and apparently that was too much, i had told him that i felt very uncomfortable about “kassandra” his “ friend” going in the front seat bcz for me its like something exclusive and not for every female and i told him that i didnt liked it because at the end they had feeling for each other before me they both js broshed it off till december last yr when me and luis was talking they finally admitted that they used to have feeling for each other thats what he said but looking at the messages it was at the beggining if this year (he lied) thats the main reason i didnt wanted her on the front seat but apparently for him it was just a seat that it didnt matter and thats when he brought up my past i have done so many stuff i regretted and it seems like people from my past are friends of his so he just told me that he tried to ignore it but he just cant and that we should js stay as friends which is funny because me personally im the kind of people that when i actually get to the point where i want something w someone i will give my everything i tried so hard to make him understand that it was js the past that it didnt meant anything or shows that who i am rn and that we should js focus on each other and what we want and i tried i tried to reassure him show him that i wanted him he made me ask my mom to hang out with him he was trying to make me stop smoking i tried to understand him i tried to ignore his past too but apparently mines was too much for him? All i asked is to ask kassandra to not go on front and the also asked him if he could reassure me a bit more bcz sometimes it didnt rrly felt like he wanted me thats all while he was trying to make me do all this changes and i kept trying bcz i actually wanted to be w him yk Idk there was a couple of times when he made sum kind of comment abt my body and i had to brush it off bcz he would always back it up with the “im my own person” that thats how he is when he gets confortable thats how he “jokes around” and i tried to tell him that it wasnt okay bcz yk if u want to be w me why are you making me feel insecure with what you saying like if im not telling you anything abt your appearance why would you make comments like that to me is js disrespectful and he never understood that and at the end i kept trying to work things out telling him that he should talk more this and that but he wouldn’t do the same to me and last week he said “i love you” i still dont get how are you gon love someone one week and then js trying to run away instead of trying to fix things and work things out this was back at beggings of February a week and a half later after he told me that he just wanted to be “friends” he asked me out on valentines day not even a month later i ended up checking his phone because i got suspicious by a text he sent me and on marxh 3rd i founded out that he would “flirt” w her telling her that “she its beautiful” that “if it were for him he would of have been filling her up” and more stuff this went on for like at least 2 and a half months, months were i was trying to keep things working begging communicating about the things that made me unconfortable he never really cared he kept on doing them. We basically broke up that day but a few days later we started talking again we communicated and again i seen more texts. I couldn’t take it no more so i told him to cut her off completely because he wouldn’t listen on having space from her he would bring her food after work took her out to eat multiple times after work (12 am) and even shared with her some very personal information abt me so apparently when he told her he couldn’t give her more rides to school she got mad and called me names and he ended up deleteding those msgs saying that he dindt wanted me to see the way she talked abt me so since i didnt seen exactly what he told her i kept on thinking abt it that he didnt cut her off completely so my trust issues were already way too broken so a few days later i texted her asking to unblock him and text him trying to flirt back w him and see if he would fall for it and guess what he did. Ill attach some ss of the stuff he said to her down there⬇️ after that i decided to give him another chance asked questions and welp we was okay but there was arguments almost every day even for small stuff but it was mostly me bcs yk welp my trust issues were completely ruined recently i went out kf the satate and slept with someone else and i told him about it honestly i rrly thought it was gon be the end but he went crazy mode he posted personal information on social media the world knew what i did he even started to threaten me texted my mom but we ended up talking abt it a few days after and decided that i need time i need contact 0 for a few weeks genuinely idk how to feel abt him no more i am tired of him doing the same thing ive told him i dont like over and over i know for a fact we were both in the wrong but we js keep fighting and arguing it has gotten to a point were i think i dont care anymore about how we end.