Maybe I just wasn’t enough.
Pata hai aaj kya hua ,so mera 2nd semester ke exams chal rahe the, last exam was yesterday and I decided to propose my crush. I had proposed her before, she said "not now, but in the near future I will definitely." It was in 2025, like Nov or Oct. Maine mere doston ko kaha ki main usse propose karunga, they said "thik hai bhai." Humne decide kia ki exams over hone ke baad propose karunga.
After exams were over, I met her in the parking. I said "we need to talk" and confessed her. She said "Dekh yaar, I really wanna give you a chance, main tujhe bahut like karti hun, even I love you too, but the thing is I can't do it. Kyunki meri family allow nahi karegi — pehle wo meri lanka lagayenge, then teri. Main kabhi relationship mein nahi aayi so I never experienced love before. Mujhe sach mein acha laga ki tune mujhse apni feelings express kari, but meri family wale mujhpe bahut trust karte hain. I can't do this. Sorry yaar." That's what she said.
And guess what — I said "It's okay, we can be friends. Kya tun Insta ya any other social use karti hai?" She said no. Then I asked for her number, she said "Mummy ki hai, phone bhi." And that's how I got rejected twice. Maine uske liye lotus flower bhi liya tha, usse dene ke liye, but kabhi de nahi paya.
Last but not least, I asked her "At least ek pic toh saath mein le sakte hain?" She said yes, and we got a pic together, and then she left.
Maine yeh sab apne doston ko bataya. I really love her but she still said no — she never said no, neither yes too. I still have that flower. Maybe I was not enough.