People keep commenting on our connection
I'm largely at peace with where I'm at on this journey. I had a very turbulent, distressing previous relationship that mimicked a TF journey and really taught me how to be emotionally regulated even in the face of strong feelings and so I learned the lessons of unconditional love and healthy detachment then. I'm really lucky to be able to apply those lessons now to a journey that's been strange, confusing, messy but a LOT less wrenching. He and I are friends, and I respect that he's on his own path and ours may never cross again romantically, which is fine! I accept whole-heartedly that had we'd tried to be romantic now, it would be a wreck (and would probably end fast) and his decision to just be friends truly has protected us from walking a turbulent path. I'd rather him be healthy and happy than be with me and I, too, deserve happiness and a person who's ready now to meet me where I'm at. I understand the assignment which is to let that man do him while I do me lol. We have lots of mutual friends so I often see him out and, when I do, we have great banter and it's always a good time. The only thing that's really bothering me is this: I cannot be in a room with him without someone commenting on our connection--even as I try to accept it won't be going anywhere. Someone wanted to know, unprompted, if we were in love (and this was when nothing romantic had even happened yet). A friend said they felt uncomfortable being near us, like she should leave the room and give us some privacy. People want to know what's going on with us. My friend from elementary school who was visiting and who's not in this friend group even said something about it. It's incessant and I do not understand why this is happening. All we're doing is talking. It feels extremely disorienting to me since he's made it clear he sees me as a friend...but no one else sees it that way. It's like the one person who has a say in this is saying 'the sky is green,' and everyone else is saying, 'no, it's definitely blue' and I'm like 'it's probably blue but maybe it's green?' I 'm just not sure what I'm supposed to make of these remarks. They make this all so much harder