I stopped trying to give CA and nothing bad happened
i was genuinely so unhappy with my life.
i'd taken the CA exam 3 times and failed every single time. everyone around me was moving on with their lives while i felt completely stuck. i stopped meeting friends because i was embarrassed. every conversation somehow came back to "so... when are you clearing?"
i started believing i was just lazy or stupid.
eventually i started therapy (after putting it off for ages because i thought it was pointless). honestly i expected someone to just tell me to "think positive" 💀
instead we spent weeks figuring out why i tied my entire self-worth to one exam, why every failure felt like proof that i wasn't enough, and why i kept burning myself out trying to prove myself.
i'm not saying therapy magically made me pass or fixed my life overnight. but i stopped hating myself. i learnt how to study without spiralling every time i made a mistake. i started enjoying parts of my life again instead of waiting for one result to decide whether i deserved to be happy.
if anyone's in that place... it really can get better.
not sharing my therapist's details publicly because i'd rather respect their privacy, but if you're genuinely looking for someone, feel free to DM me.
Am sharing this because in the last 10 days I have spoken to 7-8 of my juniors and all of them are so stuck and so unhappy
myquals-litertally just a student
I am doing a masters degree in econ now and v happy with it