r/chessgirlz

The thing I love about chess is it really does have this strange ability to drift from “wooden horsey goes clop clop” into pure abstract mathematical thought experiments.

This Numberphile video on red and black knights absolutely SENT me.

It starts with a deceptively simple setup and then slowly unfolds into one of those beautiful “wait hold on WHAT?” moments. Suddently it’s all combinatorics, geometry, pattern recognition and chess in this grand collision.

One of my favourite things about chess adjacent maths is how the board stops being just a game platform and becomes a real landscape. In this video knights aren’t pieces anymore. They are constraints moving through space. The final pattern/result in this is elegant and my brain simultaneously understands it yet also refuses to believe it.

Numberphile remains one of the internet’s greatest gifts for making higher mathematics feel super engaging and exciting.

I got into chess because I genuinely fell in love with the game. The history, the aesthetics, the psychology of it, the strange depth of it all.

And a huge part of what inspired me was seeing the women who fought their way into a space that never really wanted them there in the first place.

Judit Polgár. Vera Menchik. Women who had to endure endless condescension and misogyny just to sit at the board and be taken seriously. Vera literally had men mocking the idea of losing to a woman in the 1920s right up until she started beating them.

And sometimes I get why they had to be so tough, because chess spaces can still be exhausting as a woman, especially if you’re visibly learning.

The game is so male dominated that half the time I’m either being hit on, patronised, mansplained to, talked down to, tested, ridiculed or treated like some novelty.

Instead of just another person trying to learn chess. If you’re low rated or openly improving instead of already strong, it can feel even worse. Every mistake becomes “proof” you don’t belong there.

People love talking about getting more women into chess but a lot of the culture still feels deeply unwelcoming unless you arrive already exceptional.

And the weird thing is in a week and a half I’m going to my first OTB FIDE rated tournament. I should be excited. Part of me is. Part of me is terrified. Part of me already feels tired before I’ve even sat down at the board.

I still love chess itself. I’m just not always sure how I feel about chess culture.

I admire my chess queens because they kept going anyway. ♟️