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I have been relapsing on my life, and remembering what things I have done in secret about others. Primarily lust. I have gone farther away from my wicked ways, but I know it will be said to these people on judgement day and I just want to know what I should even do.

I know how evil, rotten hearted I was during this time thinking about my own friends like that. I have never been more scared in my life than these last few days realizing how evil I used to be and how I should say it to others.

If I keep hiding this, it will just be worse. And if I don't, I lose everything, my family probably I really don't know, friends. I don't want this to be shown but I know it will be shown. All I will do currently is just pray to God to forgive me, and pray that these people will someday figure out without my control. All I can do.

Lord forgive my evil lustful mind. Every little bit of it. Spite it into the ground. Help me lord. Help.

I want to give you all a friendly but important reminder that believing in God is not the same thing as having faith in God.

My intention isn’t to cause you any fear or alarm but to encourage you to examine your own hearts and ensure you’re truly walking in faith.

I have a few verses I think might be beneficial for you:

“For we are saved by hope; but hope that is seen is not hope, for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for it?”
Romans 8:24

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. 2 This is what the ancients were commended for
Hebrews 11:1-2

I think at one point we all ask the question: why doesn’t God just reveal himself to everyone? The first verse answers this beautifully.

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for. If we have nothing to hope for, where is our confidence in that which we hope? Nonexistent. Without hope, there is no faith.

The importance of faith is tremendous.

“But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”
Hebrews 11:6

“For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:”
Ephesians 2:8

Your salvation and your favor are dependent on your faith and they are given freely to you by grace. Believing in God is great. And if you do, that’s wonderful. But as Apostle James wrote, even the demons believe.

Brothers and sisters, please examine yourselves closely. Are you walking in faith?

Have confidence in the Lord your God and rejoice gladly in the salvation he’s going to bring to all who are waiting for him.

After much thought and consideration these last several weeks, I have decided that I am going to delete my Reddit account. As a result of that, this community will be transferred to other hands. I did not make this decision lightly, but I do think it is the best interest of myself and this community.

I will offer an explanation, but not a thoroughly detailed one. I do not think I am spiritually or emotionally in the best place to lead this community where I think God wants this community to be. I also think being away from social media will be of more help than I could fathom. I am dealing with a lot and that is an understatement, so while today is my last day owning this subreddit, please remember me and pray for me.

I'd like to thank you all for the love, insight, and contributions to this community. I am thankful that I revived this community after years of inactivity. I would like to believe that reviving this community has contributed positively to at least one person. It is good to have platforms where the Gospel can be shared and Jesus can be glorified.

I do feel the need to say this, in hopes that it might help at least one person. I would have never knew the love of God or revived this community if it wasn't for the horrible situation I endured. This community alongside the other one I founded answered a prayer that I prayed to God over a year ago. I told Him that if He wasn't going to remove the pain then let Him use it to bring people to Him.

The Lord has answered more than I ever could imagine. He gave me closure regarding the horrible situation I endured in the form of meeting the person responsible in a dream. He has opened doors that I never imagined He would. He has given me new eyes and a perspective on life that keeps me fighting on - the reality that this life is temporary. He allowed my decisions to get in an ungodly situation to result in my complete ruining, so that at the end of myself all I could see was Jesus.

He has given me the heart to pray for the individual who did all kinds of harmful things in the name of God. He has given me His heart in seeing this person as a broken person who does not actually know Jesus. I pray one specific prayer for this person now, I pray that this person gets everything that they want in this life so that when it is not enough they beg God for mercy and that God will hear from Heaven and heal their heart and mind.

I am still left with scars, but I am not left with open wounds. I no longer have the nightmares, but I have the flashbacks. I no longer have a longing for purpose, but I still have the sadness. I no longer desire revenge, but I still want acknowledgement. This is to say simply that God does answer in His own timing and in His own way, but God does not remove the obstacles that we want. He, however, walks with us and helps us carry our crosses - just as Jesus had help with carrying His.

Jesus can meet you where you are. His mercies are new every morning and this life is full of suffering, but the Lord is full of mercy. The Lord has walked in flesh and experienced suffering beyond our capabilities and He might not remove the thorns, but He has felt them before and He walks with all of us to help us endure and to help us to love and know Him.

Thank you guys for everything and above all thank God that He turned a situation meant for evil into something for His glory.

Did you ever experience in your life the total surrender to God moment? How did you all do it? Really curious on this one, cause I saw one post that when a person actually stops praying about it and stops controlling God to change His will in accordance with yours, that is when the time that you really surrendered everything to Him and that He will actually start to work on that thing youve been praying about :)

Today I turn fifty-nine.

Fifty-nine years.

Nearly six decades.

More than twenty-one thousand days of joys, sorrows, victories, failures, unexpected blessings, and lessons I never saw coming.

People sometimes ask what I would say to my younger self if I had the chance.

For years, I thought I would tell him how to avoid mistakes.

How to choose differently.

How to spare himself heartache.

But the older I’ve become, the more I’ve realized something.

If I could erase every painful chapter…

I might also erase many of the places where I learned who God really is.

So today, on my fifty-ninth birthday…

I’d simply like to have a conversation with the younger versions of myself.

⸻

To six-year-old Ben…

I know you’re confused.

You don’t understand why your mother is gone.

You don’t understand why you’re living with your aunt and uncle while other boys live with their parents.

You’re going to spend years wondering why your story began this way.

I can’t answer every question.

But I can promise you this.

God sees you.

Even when you don’t yet know how to see Him.

⸻

To thirteen-year-old Ben…

You’re trying to figure out who you are.

You’re looking for acceptance.

Trying to fit in.

Wondering where you belong.

Listen carefully.

Don’t let the opinions of people become louder than the voice of God.

One day you’ll discover that what God knows about you is infinitely more important than what anyone else thinks about you.

⸻

To seventeen-year-old Ben…

You just lost your daddy.

The world suddenly feels different.

There are conversations you’ll wish you could have one more time.

Questions you’ll never get to ask.

The ache won’t disappear overnight.

But love has a way of surviving even death.

And so does hope.

⸻

To twenty-one-year-old Ben…

You think adulthood means having all the answers.

It doesn’t.

You’re going to make some wonderful decisions.

You’re also going to make some painful ones.

Don’t confuse confidence with wisdom.

Never stop asking God to direct your steps.

⸻

To twenty-six-year-old Ben…

Tomorrow you’ll marry the woman you love.

You’re filled with hope.

Dreams.

Plans.

Marriage is a beautiful gift.

But remember…

Love isn’t sustained by emotion alone.

Choose faithfulness every single day.

Especially on the days when feelings aren’t enough.

⸻

To forty-year-old Ben…

You’re about to become a dad.

Not by birth…

But by love.

You have no idea how much that little boy is going to change your life.

He’ll teach you things about the Father’s heart that no book ever could.

Treasure every moment.

Even the ordinary ones.

Especially the ordinary ones.

⸻

To forty-three-year-old Ben…

Turn the car around.

Call your wife.

Go home.

There is nothing waiting for you that is worth what you’re about to lose.

Sin always promises more than it delivers.

Grace will find you…

But the scars are real.

Don’t believe the lie that one decision won’t matter.

It will.

⸻

To fifty-five-year-old Ben…

I know you’re sitting in front of a camera trying to make sense of another broken chapter.

You wonder whether your best days are behind you.

Keep talking to God.

Even when your prayers feel like they’re only reaching the ceiling.

He is listening.

Even in the silence.

⸻

To fifty-seven-year-old Ben…

You’re packing boxes.

Leaving another marriage behind.

Again.

You feel like your life has become a collection of endings.

It hasn’t.

God still writes new chapters after the ones we’d rather tear out.

Don’t stop believing that.

⸻

And now…

Today, I stand on the other side of fifty-nine years.

Years filled with moments I would gladly relive…

And moments I would give almost anything to undo.

Yet every one of them became part of the story God was writing.

And that’s what I see most clearly today.

If I’m honest…

There are things I would change.

Words I wish I’d never spoken.

Sins I wish I’d never committed.

People I wish I’d never hurt.

Moments I’d gladly relive if I could.

But I can’t.

And maybe that’s okay.

Because when I look back over nearly six decades…

I don’t see a man who always got it right.

I see a God who never stopped pursuing a man who often got it wrong.

His mercy outlasted my failures.

His grace proved greater than my shame.

His patience exceeded my stubbornness.

His faithfulness remained when mine faltered.

If my story proves anything…

It isn’t that I’ve lived an extraordinary life.

It’s that I’ve served an extraordinary God.

Today I turn fifty-nine.

I don’t know how many birthdays remain.

Only God knows that.

But I do know this.

The same God who walked beside a frightened little boy…

Strengthened a grieving young man…

Forgave a broken husband…

Loved an imperfect father…

And refused to abandon an aging disciple…

Will still be faithful tomorrow.

And every tomorrow after that…

Until He calls me home.

If He grants me another year…

My prayer isn’t that life becomes easier.

It’s simply that I become more like Christ.

⸻

Final Word

If I could leave one message for every younger version of myself, it would simply be this:

Don’t give up on God.

There will be days when you don’t understand Him.

Days when you question Him.

Days when you disappoint Him.

And days when you wonder if He’s forgotten you.

He hasn’t.

One day you’ll look back and realize that through every joy, every loss, every failure, every victory, and every unexpected turn…

The greatest constant in your life was never your strength.

It was His faithfulness.

Today isn’t really about turning fifty-nine.

It’s about celebrating fifty-nine years of a faithful God.

To Him be all the glory.

I finally made it through this storm and got my first job in Germany. ❤️

Looking back, the season of searching for a job was one of the hardest seasons I've been through.

I had several trial shifts, but none of them worked out. With every rejection, my confidence became a little weaker, and my fear of failing grew stronger. Still, deep down, I believed that somehow Jesus would make a way.

One day, on my way home, I found myself wondering if this season wasn't only about finding a job. Maybe God wanted to change something in me first. I began to see areas where I needed to grow, and I felt that He was preparing me for what He had ahead.

That very same day, I received an offer for my first job in Germany. Later that evening, I unexpectedly received money that I wasn't expecting. To me, it felt like a loving reminder that God sees us, even before we reach the finish line.

I'm still growing. I've changed in many of those areas, and I'm still struggling with one of them. But now I'm learning to trust God while He continues His work in me.

So if you're in a difficult season, don't only ask, "God, when will You change my situation?" Also ask, "Lord, what are You trying to change in me?"

This journey taught me courage. The courage to keep trying after rejection, to work on myself, and to present myself with confidence instead of letting fear define me.

I came here to say this: Christ has already won. There is nothing He cannot carry you through.

Stay firm in your faith and keep asking Him for help. Even when it doesn't look like the storm will end, remember His promise:

«"Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you." Matthew 7:7»

If you're in the middle of a storm right now, don't lose hope. The same Jesus who carried me through this season is still with you today. He hasn't forgotten you. 🤍🙏

I’m posting this anonymously because I’m still processing it myself, and it feels too personal to attach my name to.

I grew up feeling scared, confused, and trapped most of the time. Not in a way I could explain as a child—just something my body knew and my mind tried to survive.

I became very quiet. I learned to read people before I spoke. I learned that being “easy,” agreeable, and emotionally invisible was safer than having needs. I learned how to people-please so I wouldn’t upset the balance around me.

And when reality felt too heavy, I disappeared into my imagination just to cope.

By around 10 years old, something inside me shut down. I didn’t have words for it then, but now I understand it as numbness. I wasn’t fully living anymore—I was just getting through life. Feeling less was safer than feeling anything at all.

That numbness didn’t go away as I got older. I just got better at functioning while carrying it.

For most of my life, I didn’t understand myself. I didn’t understand why I struggled with connection, why I felt detached, why I couldn’t fully access joy or safety even when things looked “fine” on the outside.

I didn’t come to know Christ in a real, personal way until I was 37.

I went to church and heard a message about God having plans for my life, and something in me broke. Not dramatically on the outside—but inside, it was like something I had been holding together for decades finally cracked open.

And for the first time in my life, I started to see my story differently.

Not as random survival. Not as damage. Not as something I had to just endure alone.

But as something God had been present in the entire time—even when I had no awareness of Him.

That realization wrecked me in the most unexpected way.

Because I had spent so long believing I was alone in it. Forgotten in it. Or just… left to figure it out.

But I wasn’t.

God was there in the silence.
He was there in the fear.
He was there in the confusion I couldn’t name.
He was there even in the numbness.

I just didn’t know how to recognize Him yet.

And I think that’s what hits me the hardest now—I was never actually abandoned, even when it felt like I was.

I don’t say this like I have everything healed or figured out. I don’t. I still feel the weight of what I lived through.

But something has changed in me: I no longer believe my life was meaningless survival.

I believe God was with me in it, and He is still not done with me.

" Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble and keep on praying."

Romans 12:12 NLT

Hi all, help me start converting <3 shoot me some app recommendations. Pagan wanting to learn the good word

The Prosperity Gospel is a movement that promotes tithing and giving to a pastor or church community in exchange for material and spiritual blessings. It has become interwoven in certain charismatic communities and non-denominational communities. This movement creates followers seeking God for what He can do for them to help them prosper in this life, not because we are destined for Hell because of our sinful nature and only He can save us from that destination.

This movement is damaging and unbiblical. The Bible never promises us an easy ride in this lifetime, but it does tell us we will suffer as a result of His name (Philippians 1:29, Romans 5:3-5, James 1:2-4, John 16:33, 2 Timothy 3:12 explicitly.) Jesus suffered the thorns and the cross and even single one of His disciples except John was killed for the Gospel. To this day, there are still people killed because of preaching the name of Jesus.

We suffer for a variety of different reasons and because we live in a broken world. Suffering produces endurance and builds character within us. Suffering can bring us closer to God when we lean on Him knowing He is all we have. We also suffer as a direct consequence of our sins. God never promises to remove suffering from us, but He promises to walk with us in our suffering. The Bible tells us we have a Shepherd who relates with our sufferings, as once He suffered by the hands of those whom He created.

God does bless people, because it is in His nature to bless those who love Him. His blessings, however, are not material but spiritual. Matthew 6:20 talks about storing treasures in Heaven and not the ones on Earth. God even blesses the wicked by allowing their rebellion to run rampant. The righteous and the wicked suffer and prosper, which is the design of a world governed by free-will.

Psalm 73 and even Jeremiah 12:1 are the lamenting of the prophets who asked the same question as to why the wicked prosper. Job did as well, as one who was considered righteous before God. He wondered why He obeyed and was righteous and was still dealing with the brunt of turmoil's. Job suffered righteously and obeyed radically and was rewarded generously. Our goal as Christians is not to lessen the suffering on our plate, but to trust the One who can walk with us in it and get us through it.

This life is temporary and there are only a number of hours and days before death greets us all. We need to get this idea out of our head to seek more prosperity and more things that we will not take us with to our graves. The love of money, as said in Scripture, is the root of all evil. Which in return, comes to the greatest problem, the love of self and self-perseverance.

God will not reward you for giving to your church, His blessings are never tied upon things we do for Him. They are tied to who He is for us, our Provider, our Savior, and our Leader. If you are tithing and giving to the community in exchange for a reward then you are treating God like Walmart and exchanging money for a gift. The gifts of God, however, are free and because of His grace not because of our actions.

When we weigh our salvation and life upon what we did for the Kingdom instead of relying upon what God has done for us through Jesus, we become like the people in Matthew 7. The type of people who casted out demons, and prophesize in His name, but never knew Him. It's a position of heart to be a servant and acknowledge the King and that every good thing comes from Him.

There are many folks out there in the world who claim to know Jesus, but their hearts are far from Him. It even talks about people who praise Him with their lips, but their hearts are far from Him. This is the majority of people in the churches. When it talks about the gate being narrow, it is very narrow. Knowing God is to die to yourself and your desires and surrender wholly to God. There are times God will crush you and you will feel nothing but silence, but God is also a merciful and loving God that loves His children and above all He is truth. He loved us so much that He gave His Son and through Him we may be reunited with Him, because without Jesus all of us would go to Hell.

The Prosperity Gospel is a Gospel that teaches God will exchange His time and "blessing abilities" if we give something in return. God gives because of who He is, not because of who we are or what we have done. Remember this, and do not be deceived for the Bible says in the last days many will have itching ears and fall victim to a false gospel. Even Satan presents himself like an angel of light.

The Gospel is simple. This life is temporary. Look to Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith.

I have an upcoming job interview for a state job and it’d be a good opportunity to improve my resume. Pray that I do well on my interview and that I’ll be able to secure this job.

I am nervous my previous supervisor will give me a bad recommendation because after I got injured communication between us deteriorated. I did give sufficient notice, however, so hopefully everything will turn out alright.

The Immense Value Of Failure

The natural man spends his entire life running from the shadow of defeat. Our modern culture, steeped in the delusion of self-esteem and human potential, views failure as the ultimate tragedy. The world tells you to pick yourself up, look within, and find your inner strength. Even within the professing church, modern scholars and soft-spoken televangelists offer a counterfeit gospel of non-stop prosperity and psychological comfort, suggesting that if you just have enough faith, you will never stumble. They have rewritten the Christian life to look like an unbroken climb up the corporate ladder.

But the Bible tells a completely different story. The scriptures reveal that the path to spiritual maturity is often paved with the wreckage of our own self-sufficiency. God does not use the men who think they are strong; He breaks the men who think they are strong so that they might learn to rely entirely on Him. When a believer falls, it is not the end of his usefulness to God; often, it is just the beginning. The Holy Spirit utilizes our moments of absolute failure to strip away our pride, expose our weakness, and redirect our eyes back to the finished work of Jesus Christ. If you are currently looking at the pieces of a broken life, a broken ministry, or a broken home, do not despair. God is not done with you. There is an immense, eternal value in failure when it drives a man to his knees and forces him to look to the Word of God.

For the sake of brevity and to respect this communities rules and values, the above is only a small part of the whole article. If you are interested in reading the rest, contact me.

Regardless of whether or not you desire to read the whole article, you are highly encouraged to reply and share your own experience with failure. Post how you went through it, how the Lord ultimately got you through to the other side, and make sure to include the specific verses in the Bible that helped you immensely so that others in this community can see your testimony and be edified by what transpired.

Hey guys I'm a believer and I've been Seeking Lord for many months and I'm trying my best to keep my gift with me. The Holy Spirit keeps guiding me, but the thing is I want to share my talent which is given by Lord , and I just don't want to Loose myself in the world again and you.

Many of you may be struggling in your belief and there maybe some thorns and bushes and storms in your Life, Lets build each other via prayer if anyone wants any kind of Spiritual help. I'm up for you and Please whoever is reading Please continue don't loose your hope God is good and is very faithful, and

I'm trying to start a bible study for sure please Join us, I'll be glad. If you are in the group, it will be a big support and help from your side, I'm not gonna ask any financial support but give it in your church, don't think twice before giving it to the Lord.

Does anybody have some tips on how to help love Jesus? Because I can worship in prayer or at church but it feels in some way, bland. Not as if it was useless but just how it doesn't feel like that genuine to me. I just need help on this since I have wanted to come back to god and try to be genuine, and make myself actually abide in him

Hi community.

I know some of you may take offense to this, but I think it’s important as the body of Christ to have discussions sometimes. It helps us edify one another and to grow closer to the Lord. I welcome your thoughts, because this community has never and will never become an echo chamber where discussion and reason is not shared.

The Bible talks about the body of Christ being one mind. 1 Peter 3:8, Romans 15:6, Philippians 2:2 are some places it mentions this. Denominations have existed throughout the existence of the Christian faith, but being around for so long does not mean it is right.

Denominationalism has caused such destruction, especially among the Protestant branch. People unilaterally interpret the Bible through their own interpretations and desires and can deceive an entire multiple of uneducated people that they are right and everyone else is wrong. Biblical interpretation gets degraded down to ice cream flavors instead of substance of fact and life.

We have denominations now that don’t have a policy on the trinity or water down the doctrine to be hyper-inclusive. We must have standards for our faith, because Jesus even had standards for the faith. He said He was the only way to God, and that my friends is how you get to God. Some people like Paula White in my opinion, seem to imply God can be reached through prosperity and tithing to a local church community.

The idea of tossing money into a wishing well and getting answers immediately like using an Ouija Board. It is dangerous and some of these extreme examples is why we must look into ourselves and stop the division and problems from denominationalism.

We, and by we I am referring to first-world Christianity, have made Christianity like a sports team. The Methodists here, the Presbyterians, the Catholics, the Baptists, the Eastern Orthodox, and others. We sow discord so much among ourselves by saying we are unilaterally right and the rest of you are wrong and instead of agreeing to disagree many arguments arise and make Christianity look fragmented.

How can we reach a dying world when we’re all dying to debate who is wrong and who is right? If God is right, and His Word is right, shouldn’t the priority be on the foundation of our faith - Jesus Christ - and not the minor differences of how to interpret non-essential rhetoric?

Is it worth the hours of debates we have with people because they believe communion is symbolic or they have their Sabbath on Saturday or the women there wear pants to church? When the world continues to worsen, should we not have better priorities?

Being of one mind to me means this: One mind knowing Jesus is the only One who can give us salvation and despite the disagreements, we should put those aside for the greater good of the lost coming to know Him.

It does not make us look good when the nonbelievers see us quarreling with one another about such non-important factors. Before I came to know Christ, I thought the same. I questioned what is Christianity if even they can’t agree on it for themselves. If it’s such a quarrelsome religion, why does it call itself one that grants peace?

We also should stop making a new church just because one person disagrees with a minor doctrine. This has happened so many times that now the Protestant movement has over 40,000 denominations. I don’t agree with Catholicism and Orthodoxy either, but I do concede their point with that.

But I’d like to know your thoughts, because I think it’s important to have discussions where everyone can engage so we may wrestle and pray for the truth and correction. If not for any of you, then for myself.

Thank you all,
Acelia

Please pray for me! For those of you that don’t know me well I’ve been doing pretty extensive research on the origins of the Word of Faith and NAR Movements and their offshoots. A local Pentecostal Church in my community that I have family and friends in is sinking further towards this type of false theology. It’s weighing my spirits heavy enough that I think I will take my own advice I’ve given to others. I’m going to step back from having anything to do with church history or theology for a week besides what’s actually required of me. Please pray for my piece and sanity! Most importantly pray for those consumed within these camps. Please! There’s many brothers and sisters but also many people within these systems who don’t know the gospel and are false converts by definition

Then coincidentally I also got into a more or less unplanned debate over the Gospel and the possibility of Christian demonization. It was intense debate. Overall I feel God was glorified in the end. But this brother was very harsh and antagonistic. I kept trying to divert the conversation and he pretty much trolled me. In the end he blocked me and conceded tó the weight of the Word of God over manmade myths

I find comfort tonight in Psalms 73. Reading how Asaph also struggled with the seeming success of the wicked. Let’s take heart thst it’s only a season. This world is not our home after all! There’s a much better promise down the road that exceeds the temporary highs of this crumbling world.

If you’ve read tó the end thank you! God bless you and keep you and make his face tó shine upon you.