It’s about once a week, the last three months; I hit a bag but lately every Friday and weds has been a full g to the sinuses. I don’t stop till my teeth feel it….iykwim. Any amount is too much ig…but what’s a regular amt? What’s ur avg week?
I've been up for 40 hours binging coke and alcohol. I've drank 20 beer and 750ml of rum and snorted 3 grams. Has anyone done more and stayed up longer? I'm worried i've done too much. I would like to quit doing it for good but need help. Does anyone have any suggestions. Just joined reddit
I get that porn addiction is porn addiction. However, throw stimulants in the mix and that will truly show you how cruel life can be.
You usually hear that addiction takes time to become fully addicted to whatever. Like, smoking weed leads to shrooms which then leads to Acid etc etc.
I woke up one day in college and I hadn’t even smoked weed yet, and somehow went to bed that night with the most hedonistic degenerate addiction I had no idea even existed.
It was finals week and roommate was prescribed Adderrall and gave me one to help me study. Little did I know, that little pill has cost me practically everything. I took it 30 MG IR and was flying. I had never thought so clearly before it was great. Until I checked instagram, saw a hot girl - got horry and thought let me get this out the way.
From that moment, I had lost everything. I instantly became addicted to Stims and porn (Stimfapping). Quite possibly the most shameful and hedonistic addiction out there. It’s a silent addiction - not really talked about cause who would actually admit to it? I landed straight into a meth addicts favorite hobby instantly.
It didn’t take long to move from Adderall to cocaine to Meth and a drug so evil which is the Pyros (a-PVP). Hopefully, you’ve never heard of them. Such a soul destroying combination, yet so wickedly addicting.
Let me explain what true regret feels like - it’s Friday and you have plans to go out. Tell yourself one bump to get the legs moving and now it’s Monday morning and work started 20 minutes ago. You haven’t moved since Friday and covered in sweat, filth, and cum. It’s a special moment when you realize you spent 36 hours straight watching porn , completely twacked on any stim. Those comedowns, I can’t put into words. The regret you feel is simply indescribable.
I truly believe this is the most destructive addiction one can have..I remember waking up that morning, a normal kid, and in a couple hours my life was about to vanish.
It truly has already taken everything from me. Such a cheap and total escape from reality, days go by in what feels like minutes - you are in a complete tramce, Believe it or not, I had no problem with girls and had a good amount of sex, which is completely ruined - a girl can’t compare to that level of stimulation.
Let me add by saying, porn addiction doesn’t compare to a stimfapping addiction. Just as stimfapping on coke doesn’t compare to stimfapping on pyros . I have taken this addiction to its most vile form and can’t believe I allowed myself.
I think back to when i was 12 - thinking about what I would be doing at my current age. Such a cruel twistl, I didn’t deserve this but have no one to blame but myself.
My advice: NEVER BUY MORE THEN WHAT YOU NEED FOR THAT NIGHT.
Once a couple grams follow you home, a fun night turns into a wicked addition you want no part of.
If curious here is my full story;
https://www.reddit.com/r/selfimprovement/s/ejKyRfKiur
Oh, the way life works.
I know someone with an addiction, if anyone has any advice to help me get them off it would be a huge help I need help I need to understand better why they have this issue. I feel like I’ve tried everything and am no help sometimes I feel I add to the issue also I feel like I’m the cause sometimes. I just want to help and understand and stop sitting here with all these thoughts. I do not know what to do.