r/gaybrosgonemild

Was inspired to post after discovering this 50 plus community. 💪💪💪

I’m still in university in Canada and he’s twenty five years older in Scotland, claims he’s straight, but we became intensely close, travelled through several countries together, stayed in hotels, went on the first proper dates I’d ever really had, flirted constantly and shared things like poetry and long conversations; now we still talk daily, but there’s this strange intermittent yet possessive distance, and every day apart feels like I’m losing him while also aging out of whatever his preference for me was.

It’s also messed with my self-esteem because every day I get older feels weirdly loaded now, like I’m becoming less desirable to him, even though rationally I know my life is only opening up; I’m close to graduating, building a career and becoming more independent, and part of me is genuinely excited to meet the version of myself that exists outside of all this.

But I’ll always love him and can’t get over it even if I’m “too old” for him now. It makes me see hierarchies everywhere, and I used to be so blind to it all.

Help?

All day meetings are fun! 😟

Love is in the air 🥰

I'm used to having slightly longer hair that I can part to one side like in the second pic. It feels weird having it this short!