Repost!! Sorry had to blur some background stuff out! Ive always thought this was normal, but the more I look at it the more weird it looks/feels. Can you do this?
So birthday is at 13 i celebrated with my fam my bday in 12 so i didn’t get the chance to be with my bf until today that is 13th i know we are meeting right but i just feels si weird knowing that he is not that romantic about i know that even when we meet all what he is gonna say is happy birthday no other sweet words no nothing i feel like im being a drama queen but im not sure abt (mind he never sends long texts explaining how much he loves me or so even when i asked for them ) in our 2years of us being tgthr he only sent i think 2 texts that are explaining his love for but it’s that long or even creative (he claims that he finds it very fake and cheesy)
I really don't feel the need to be loved. I'm really confused because people are in relationships and looking to get married. I never felt the feeling to date or to get someone and I get anxiety because I feel this isn't normal. Like people talk about getting someone as if it's the lottery or something special, but I don't find it to be like that and I'm really confused by it. It's not that I'm selfish I'm just soo comfortable single and I really don't feel like I'm missing out. I also feel soo free and just soo happy with music, movies and stuff.
I don't know what it is. I never had that desperation and I get really scared. I don't despise women. If I see someone attractive I I appreciate their beauty and do talk to them but I never get this feeling like I HAVE TO GET THEM OR NEED TO BE LOVED.
I am really worried something is up with me.
I don't even get this loneliness feeling.
I don't know why I dont get this obsession to find Someone and start a family.
I feel like I should do it because everyone else is.
Am I the only one who is like this.
Also I find myself overly happy just being me. I feel that I should be depressed and desperate to find love like every human being.
Like, can everyone else close their eyes and just pull up an image of an apple, for example?
When I try to do it, I just see the inside of my eyelids.
My family thinks I'm weird because of the way I eat corn on the cob. Am I really the only one that does this??
If i’m waking up really early and someone tries to get me up ill be rude and just outwardly whiny. Is this normal? I feel mean after I finally wake up.