r/isthisnormal

Hey I’m noticing the more I run the less elasticity my skin has I don’t know if I’m just aging at the same time I’m getting into running? (I’m 31)

I have lost weight before I was 175 all through high school and then gained 30lbs after a bad break up in college went up to 205 but then quickly lost the weight and stayed about 165 for about 2 years from road cycling before I had to move back into my parents house

During the time I lost all of my muscle tone from depression due to living with my mom
And without the muscle brought me down to 158(but obviously not happy weight loss)

Even though all that though I never had lose saggy skin didn’t even have cellulite

I eventually moved out and got back to the gym and started adding running to my routine
I’m currently at 185 and the strongest I’ve ever been with the best cardio vascular health I’ve ever been at in my life

but I’ve noticed something my skin feels loose, it looks lumpier even though I’m technically heavier than I was at my lowest weight even when I was 205 my skin wasn’t this lumpy and uneven

Something is different this time I figured it’s because I’m aging or I’m running and I don’t know which

Thoughts?

I'm just soo chilled that I don't get into politics with people. Like whether it's at work or with relatives, I never hold any grudges or anything. It's the same with relationships. I never felt desperate or felt the need to be in a relationship although it would be nice to have someone, but I never felt sad about it?

Like I'm soo content with myself, I get confused when people have arguement with each other. I don't get affected alot by people. I don't know if its because I'm in my own world. I enjoy music, nature, movies alot. I don't know if there is something wrong with me. I'm always jolly and laughing.

I don't feel the need that I'm missing out if I dont get into a relationship.

This worries me because I don't know if maybe some parts of my brain or reality is missing because I'm like this. I often think something is wrong with me or the way I'm perceiving life. It's as if my brain or consciousness has found a way to deal with something?

I haven't had any stress or anything. I just feel soo relaxed that it's starting to scare me.

I see people crying because of issues with their love life, but as a single person I'm soo happy?

It's as if something is telling me inside that there is something wrong with me because I should be desperate or sad that I'm single?

To start off, I am a straight male who has mostly feminine features, (which I will not share) Over time I've noticed and expressed that I'm not a big fan of being called handsome and find terms like beautiful or pretty as a male feel more fulfilling to me. And before I see someone mention it, no I am not trans nor have I ever considered anything transgender related I just prefer said terms.