r/martialartstalk

Hi all!

I've been dealing with some things for a while now - alcoholism (two months sober!), grief from losing a family member, feelings of inadequacy relating to a new position at my job (I'm an adult ICU nurse). Grief and guilt have resurfaced recently under the news that my family shop is going to go out of business, I grew up there and it was owned by my deceased grandfather.. there's nothing I can do to save it. The building is old, not up to code, and no one in the family has the money to put it to any other use right now. So it'll probably be sold, and ill see the husk of a building i spent my early years in.

Im trying my hardest to process my emotions well, but im stuck in the same rhythm that got me drinking in the first place four years ago - want to cry but physically cant. The gym doesnt help. Journaling doesnt help. Then it starts devolving into anger at everything and I want to punch things, but I have nowhere to put that energy.

Yes, I am already in therapy. Have been for years.

Id like to use this as an opportunity to grow and reach a dream thay I have (that I never really expected myself to reach, cause im notoriously a quitter at things) - I want to be like the badass assassin princesses I read about in my fantasy books before I reach 30, lol.

But im not a fighter.... i get put on the spot and I clam up, not just for hitting people but also public speaking and performance demonstrations at work/previously in school.

Is martial arts even a good route for me? Does anyone have any recommendations if so?

Thanks guys.

Edit: just correcting some typos

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