r/medschool

to be clear, i know i should have stayed. i know i should have just sucked it up. but i couldnt.

was (understandably) yelled at in front of everyone

i broke sterile field accidentally for the second possibly third time on my surgery rotation. like a fucking idiot.

im not normally stupid. but there is something about going off of <3-4 hours/sleep a night (upstairs neighbors super noisy all night, multiple noise complaints never helped).

even though i knew i deserved the yelling, i sat off to the corner just crying. couldnt touch my face to wipe away tears cause sterility. tried to go to the darkest corner possible.

once the surgery had been completed (last surgery of the day), just suturing left (which a student was doing), i asked to leave. surgeon (who hadnt seen the yelling) seemed surprised. they let me go ? maybe out of shock at my entitlement?

i feel like in med school people are always asking to stay even when they are asked to leave.

Current M1 hoping to pursue a surgical specialty (probably general) at a graded program. I know that STEP scores and rank obviously matter, and by no means am I doing “bad” right now but feeling worried. I’m not sure how much adcoms look at GPAs if they are available and how high they need to be. The averages for the exams have been high, and currently I’m sitting at a 89 average for two courses. I worry I may end one of them w a B and not sure how this would affect me moving forward as I’m sure it may not be my last B in school.

Hopefully this is something I can post here. I recently finished my undergrad last year and honestly I've been kinda depressed lately. In my undergrad I really had to focus on classes so I did not get much time for clinical/shadowing experience and even then I only finished with a 3.35gpa. After that for the first time in my life I kinda rolled over, accepted my fate, and realized I will never get into med school and I thought I could handle it but I just can't. Ever since some childhood tragedy involving cancer I've always wanted to be a doctor so I could say I was doing my part in preventing the cycle and on top of that it is one of the few things in my life I find interesting that I can make a career out of. I guess the point of all this is to ask if anyone out there has had the same experience and what they did because as far of a sense of purpose with my life I have none and I don't know what to do.

TLDR: Between CFA and Costco while a full-time college student. Time requirement for Costco, but the benefits are great. Also, I commute to school. I also have the option to become a Team Leader at CFA.

Note: I have been working at CFA for 1 year and 5 months.

I am currently a Junior in undergrad. I am a premed student hoping to get into medical school. I work at Chick-fil-A and work about 5 hours a week. It recently changed so I can commit more time to myself (working out), studying, extracurriculars, and sleep. I used to work 15 hours a week. I received an interview at a Costco near my house with the help of a friend. They usually don't have a referral program; however, apparently they loved my interview and thought positively of me.

Pay:

The Costco location I applied to starts at 20$ an hour.

At CFA, I get paid 15.25$ an hour. If I complete Team Leader training, I would possibly be making 16$ an hour.

Scholarship:

At Costco, they offer a scholarship that opens in December.

At Chick-fil-A, I have applied and submitted the Remarkable Futures Scholarship.

Flexibility / Commitment/Schedule:

At Chick-fil-A, they are VERY flexible. They let me put in time-off requests a week in advance. Also, they are VERY understanding about being a college student. They let you have up to MONTHS off as long as you meet the 100-hour requirement during 5 months. That's like 2 and a half weeks of full-time 40, 40, 20.

At Costco, I was told I would have to work at least 24 hours a week. Also, I have been told by both my friend and the manager that there is a 90-day period where you can't call off or really request off. I'm not sure how it works.

Financial Situation:

I have a little money saved up, about 570. I rarely go out and don't have to worry about groceries or paying bills. I am grateful for that. My paychecks are about 200.

MY commitments:

I am currently Pre-Med and have been really working on my extracurriculars. I joined some clubs, am doing research, and also spend time outside of class studying. The biggest issues are the commute and sleep. I have been getting about 5-7 hours of sleep, and I feel good. As for the commute, I am a commuter and drive about an hour 15 minutes to school. That's a total of 2 hour 30 minutes a day commuting. I volunteer at the Northside Hospital near my house and have been loving it.

Here is what I was thinking:
Speak with the Costco manager and say I think it is a great opportunity, but I am unsure if I can commit to the 24-hour minimum, and ask if there's a way I can work less. If not, I can stay at CFA and become a team leader. If yes, I can possibly just tell CFA I would like to go on a 5-month break, due to their flexibility.