r/neuroleptic_anhedonia

I took 2 injections because of a wrong diagnosis 22 months ago, since then i never recovered, all my sympthoms are tinnitus, insomnia (impossible to fall asleep during daytime) and unable to feel tiredness, memory and cognitive decline, sexual disfunction and non-existent libido, feeling of being feverish/derealization/inside a lucid dream, cannot feel anymore the time, the world seems grey and fake, eyesight issue when there is no much light (before I could see almost perfectly even in the semi-darkness), and zero motivation, hunger, thrist, waking up at 6AM Unable to keep sleeping and feeling like i dint even sleep (i don’t feel anymore rested) and i cannot feel comfort/relax.

flu sympthoms last 2-4 weeks after these injections, before a normal flu lasted like2-4 days, it’s like the whole ability of my body to heal is nerfed by 80%.

i fannot feel any emotions, i can’t feel cigarets (nicotine), i can’t feel coffee, i can’t smoke anymore weed because it just give me more derealization and panic (before the injections it give me a level of pleausure and helped me hyperfocus and enjoy 10x times more videogames and music)… and goes on like that for the past 22 months.

honestly i’am losing hope, i was completely normal and healthy (never had psychosis or delusions) i just reached a psych ward on my own due to panic attacks, these mfs then keept me there against my will once i beat panic attacks and told me that if i wanted to go back to my home/life i had to take this injections, i Just trusted them and took the injections, worst thing i did in my life: trusting a “doctor“..

Just curious how many of you have a blank mind —meaning no stimulus, no complex thoughts, no emotions, no feelings, &/or substance block in addition to your anhedonia?

If so, what caused it, how long have you had it, and what have you tried?

I have this from 3 low dose pills of seroquel while also prescribed adderall 9 years ago.

What I’ve tried: exercise, diet, sobriety, time, sauna, cryotherapy, THC, LSD, psilocybin, DMT, ketamine, adderall, alpralozam, hydrocodone, nicotine, hyperbaric oxygen therapy, hypnotism, excessive list of supplements, betahistine, semax, selank, BPC157, KPV, GHK-Cu, TB-500, oxytocin, NSI189, LDN, afobazole, methylene blue, pregnenolone, tianeptine, agomelatine, MIF-1, tVNS, Neboglamine, D-Serine, Pramipexole (current)

I know everyone will say try an MAOI. I’m working on accessing one, but at this point I can’t see a substance working. I might try ECT soon out of desperation.

Mine does. While dreaming, I can feel emotions and I can experience dopamine. After a vivid dream, this persists for a while upon waking.

Does anyone else experience the same?

I don't know where I'm going with this, but I find it interesting. Does it suggest that the waking anhedonia is not entirely chemical?

Hi everyone,
I’m currently on Xeplion (Invega/Paliperidone) 50mg (monthly depot) and I’m having a terrible time. I’m an ADHD student and a chess player, but since I started this medication, I feel like my brain has been "turned off."
My main issues with Xeplion:
• Cognitive death: I can’t do mental math/ calculate chess variants anymore. My working memory is gone.
• Avolition: I’m not self-sufficient. Even basic tasks feel like climbing Everest.
• Physical side effects: I’ve gained 20kg (44lbs) and I’m experiencing frequent urination/urgency and constipation.
• Emotional blunting: I feel like a ghost.
My psychiatrist is hesitant because he says Xeplion keeps me "stable," but my quality of life is zero. He will decide next Friday whether to switch me to Abilify Maintena (Aripiprazole) 400mg.
I have a few questions for those who made this specific switch or similar:

1. Cognitive recovery: Did your "brain fog" clear up? Were you able to study or perform complex tasks (like chess or math) again?
2. Energy levels: Did the "zombie feeling" disappear? How long did it take to feel "awake" again?
3. The "Switch" process: Since Xeplion stays in the system for so long, how was the transition period? Did you feel "double-medicated" or did the Abilify kick in immediately?
4. Side effects: Did you lose the weight gained on Invega? Did you experience Akathisia with Abilify?
5. Urination and constipation: For those who had urinary urgency or constipation on Invega, did it resolve with Abilify?

I’m terrified that I’ll never be "normal" again or that my intelligence is permanently damaged. Any success stories (or honest warnings) would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in advance.