Sad, Scared, and Tired
I need help and I don’t know where to turn. I feel I’ve tried every.single.thing. My daughter went through a traumatic event at 13, where an adult male raped her. (She’s 16 now) He has since been prosecuted and sent to prison. I felt like I was fighting for my life for the two years that the case was making its way through the courts.
Between balancing the court dates, I went into full gear trying to find help for my daughter. She has seen countless mental health providers, has a med management doctor, several in patient stays, several intensive out patient programs, family therapy, then eventually juvenile detention. She’s violent, mean, angry, and truly hates me. She has one friend, but I don’t think she’s the best influence, and my daughter really doesn’t get out of bed to go see her anyways.
The more I’ve fought to advocate for and help her, the worse she gets.
She’s destroyed our home. She has been physically violent with me, and our dog is scared of her because of the constant screaming and breaking things. I feel like I’m in a domestic violence relationship with my daughter, and no one will make her stop or leave. I feel unsafe being home alone, and lock the door to shower or sleep. She is 6ft tall and quite strong, so fighting back isn’t an option.
The court system has basically forgiven all the cases of violence against her (including felony assault of a police officer) because of the incident mentioned at the beginning they took a lot of sympathy on her, as that case was truly crazy and traumatic and the courts were pretty familiar with that and decided she was “going through a lot” she’s gotten away with probation.
THEN 6 months ago she had a massive seizure, it turned out she has a genetic epilepsy disorder that manifests right around now. She’s non compliant with her epilepsy meds and mental health meds off and on, which makes her have seizures often. Im stuck with being scared OF her, and scared FOR her. She has injured herself quite bad having seizures while standing out in public.
What do I do? Please help.