[NLD] Not sure if I am fit for this field
I have been studying for a bachelor’s in psych for two years now. I failed most of my classes in the first year due to many different issues and had to retake most of them in the second year. However, I am now failing, AGAIN. I have faced two main issues besides my personal issues. Firstly, I completely avoided statistics because I am not good at math. In hs I did not attend any math classes. The thought of even attempting to learn scared me so bad because I figured it would be so humiliating to do in front of so many other students. Many years of trying to avoid math, I have become very resistant to it. I know this is a very childish mindset but unfortunately I let fear dictate most of my decisions in life.
Secondly, my programme is VERY interactive. I have many practical lessons in which we have to work on communication skills, etc. I have severe social anxiety so naturally I screwed up those classes. In short, I've spent the last two years feeling extremely incompotent.
I chose to study psychology when I was eighteen and like many other eighteen years old I was quick to make a superficial decision. After two years, I do not think that I will be able to continue here due to too many failed classes. This realization forced me to do a lot of self reflection and I am now debating on whether I should completely switch up plans or take a break for a year to work on myself before I can apply to another psychology programme.
The part that confuses me is that I actually really love this field. If not for my issues, I really enjoyed my classes. Stats is a big issue but I believe that I could overcome it by studying during my break. I have other interests but I never felt as though they would bring me enough tangible carrier opportunities. If not for this, I actually don’t have a single clue what I might want to do. I am a very socially anxious person and people often ask me why I chose this as my study as they don't see me fit for it. My answer would be that I have always wanted to do work that feels meaningful to me and working with mental health is one of those things that I know I would feel fulfilled doing. I love learning about people and studying it never feels like a waste of time like many other things do. It just feels important to me somehow. But in the end, how does it make sense for somebody with my type of personality to want to go down that path? I am seeing somebody in order to work on my social anxiety but I have no idea when I might show improvement. There is no way to say, for now.
I know this is a very personal situation so it is up to me what I wish to do. I was just wondering if anybody has experienced something similar or has any advice. If I did happen to keep studying in this field, what kind of job could I even do as a very timid/shy person? Has anybody studied psychology with similar issues and managed to overcome it?