I’m so sick of tired of this being in my life I want it gone I don’t want to like diapers anymore I want this to change but everytime I quit for awhile I go back any tips or tricks will be appreciated I mainly quitting because I’m ashamed but I also hate constantly overthinking about it and I want my life to be somewhat normal
Hey guys. As posted earlier, I have a wife who is VERY opposed to ABDL in any form. However, I’m having a very very hard time having the will to quit. My desire to engage in this is super strong. Honestly, it’s to the point where I feel suppressed enough that I do not want to be intimate with her. She has noticed this and keeps questioning why. I told her a pretty watered down version of the truth, but I think she gets the idea. We ended up getting into a huge fight about this as well as my out of control OCD tendencies. I’m just not sure what to do here, because I’m also mad at her for her lack of support. I’m in the wrong, but it feels like I can’t talk to her. Anyone else faced something like this?
So grew up with my 6 brothers and parents, my dad was working abroad( only 2 days home in the weekend)
And my mom was studying and raising up 7 boys, because of that stress she used to hit me and my brothers for the smallest things, also my dad when he came home from work. Because of the stress and the pressure in the family, my brothers always had to bully/hit me cause I was a easy target, i rage baited and screamed so badly at them that my mom would give me punishment like wearing diapers to church childcare or even hitting. She would give me those punishments cause I wetted the bed untill 7 and she knew I hated diapers. Because of all this I developed a diaper fetish which I really hate/like, I will talk about that later cause the family situation is way better, I don't get hit anymore but I would say because of my childhoodtrauma I just can't 100% bond with my parents, brothers or even strangers. All of this caused a lot of stress that I couldn't deal easily. with so subconscious I used diaper fetish to cope and when I turned into Christianity it said that using lust is sin.
Maybe it's because of the trauma but I was already so intressted in baby/regression stuff, from pacifiers to blankets, to watching kids shows ext... but the more days I quit the harder it is to regress without relapsing in diapers. Even without diapers, pacifiers and all the other regression things seems to turn me on. At this point I feel like a freak and so disgusted by myself, cause I want to regress but my diaper fetish says "no we can't" and the urges feels like drugs addicted levels.
If you read untill here, thanks a lot. I just needed to type this away from myself and if you have smt similar please let me know I don't want to feel alone in this.
I’ve been in the Abdl world for a very long time. I have loved diapers all my life and if that ment making homemade ones to constantly stopping my self from pressing the buy button on real diapers. My main point is that all I really think about is diapers unless distracted if that makes sense. I wake up wishing I was in a diaper I go to bed wishing I was in one and every where in between when at home and have time. What made me write this is that I was just laying on my bed and all I could think about was wishing I was padded and being taken care of. I’m 18 and this is a crazy thing to deal with of having the pleasure in the moment and the thought of it but the pain of hiding it, and living life knowing all I want is to be a baby again?. and trying to figure out if I can go without eventually wearing diapers.
It's 2011, and I have a random obsession with diapers. My real dad walked in on me wetting myself. From then on, these were a new fetish that would haunt me till now. Flash to 2025. I make a promise to my family. I'll FINALLY quit being a dl. Come back 3 months later in November. I relapsed and bought goodnites. A month later, I try to quit again. went successfully for legit 2 weeks. relapsed again, and I got my hand on Tenas at this point. I don't quit. I bought Rearz, and this went on for months. Till now, 2 days ago they found out I was buying pull ups. All. Of. Them. (I was on a trip back from Minneapolis and finally found 6-7T pull-ups.) I was insanely embarrassed, as even my fucking cousins already knew from the past I already had trouble with diapers. They clowned me by calling me "diaper boy." SO MUCH. Today and from now on, I'm once and for all quitting.I really don't just want to throw away new pull ups. I'm probably going to give them to my stepdad's nephews. I don't know what to do with the Rearz and Tenas. I think I might dispose of them. (PS. It's ABDL diapers with prints.) Please give me advice for this new step for me. I'm going to cut off porn also. (diaper) I will be posting on days I have the highest urges of relapsing.
I was sane when I was openly into it when I was 10-20 years old, and I'm sick of the art targeting female characters. I hate having OCD so much... I cannot be called a predator and have the cops called on me again...