
Desky Checking Out
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As I'm sure a lot of you know, I have been heavily involved in the ZedekGate™ controversy surrounding the "reTHAWed" mod for "Tony Hawk's American Wasteland", in which the lead developers (Zedek, Drake, Uzis) have allegedly perpetuated in:
- Rascism, bigotry, and harassment
- Fake firings in order to appease the community
- Dodging accountability for the harm caused
- Harassing critics via burner accounts, loyalists, and shills
- Cybersecurity attacks on perceived offenders
I have been commenting on the controversy from literally day one but I only seriously took the helm once Zedek was quietly reinstated. Since then, I have campaigned against the lack of accountability on 10K Rising's part and generally refusing to take responsibility for their actions. Needless to say, this has been an uphill battle and I have faced a great deal of opposition over it, especially thinking people that it has already run it's due course. To me, it is not just about the phobias and the -isms because that's been covered well enough. I believe that accountability and holding those responsible is just as (if not more) important.
In between the usual spam comments about unemployment, psychiatry, and personal bests, several of you have expressed genuine concern for my mental health and personal wellbeing. In case I haven't clearly expressed it, just know that I hear you, and I got mad love for all of you. I won't name names but they know who they are. I can assure you my personal wellbeing is intact but there are other factors I must address.
It has been pointed out both constructively and destructively that my involvement in ZedekGate™ has become a sunken cost fallacy or a diminishing return. In other words, each new topic I cover makes less and less difference in the grand scheme of things. Plus, whenever I do make a post, I have to weigh the perceived impact, annoying the rest of the community, and putting myself in harm's way via the personal attacks. In short, I just do not think it is worth my energy anymore. When even The Annoying Cat thinks I'm pretty annoying myself, that surely means something.
I was already prepared to write a big piece on Lakitu Zen. They were a former dev at 10K but continues to contribute to "reTHAWed" as a third-party. Even though there is a Grey area I wanted to cover, both Crooks and myself believe that Lakitu is innocent so doing a post on them when they haven't actually done anything wrong feels like I would be "Jumping The Shark" (assuming I hadn't already with the 'Secret Police' talk)
I have been keeping a close eye on both the 10K and THPSX Discord servers and once you look past the low-brow shit, I can see that somewhere, there is a commitment to change. Even if Zedek has done bad things and holds anti-LGBT viewpoints, I still believe that a redemption arc is possible for "reTHAWed". Earlier, I saw Zedek's response (1, 2) to the Cybersecurity allegations. I won't take it as hard proof but I accept that it is sincere for what it is. Of course, it is still far too early to see whether this redemption arc comes to fruition but from now on, I want to focus on the positives, not the negatives.
I'm going to be doing a raw, unfiltered personal retrospective on my involvement in ZedekGate™ at a later time. I will also be archiving my ZedekGate™ materials as planned but only because The Wayback Machine does not capture images and video from Reddit. I'm not going out of my way to do a major time capsule of the saga.
Zedek, my man. I know you blocked me but if you see this, I want this to be an apology for stirring the pot. I hope that you will accept it and that we both strive to do better in the future.
Peace