i hate distance so much
my gf and i are both part-time workers. our schedules clash here and there but i always try to make an effort to text her or just let her know i will reach back as soon as i can. but i dont get those same texts back…
im also a student in college right now and she’s not so ofc im not gonna have a lot of time on my hands with work+school+homework. but everytime she texts me im replying immediately and then get left on delivered… and its been like this recently where we barely talk, im usually left on delivered, and when she replies i reply back immediately and the cycle repeats.
today was just the tip of the iceberg for me. i had a bad day yesterday and i guess that just seeped into me having a bad day today. on top of that i was working as well… with KIDS because im an educator. i had class in the morning and work immediately after so there was basically no time to breathe. my girlfriend and i usually sleep on call but last night it didnt happen. and sure, yeah, sometimes we miss a night but then we’re back to our normal schedule. but today was just messy and i barely had any time to think for myself and also no time to talk to her. on top of that, she had a closing shift that night starting from when i get off so i knew i wasnt gonna be able to talk to her until tonight.
now usually when shes closing, she’ll call me on her drive back but she didnt even do that, just left me on seen and didnt text me until i texted her. we talked for like 5 minutes before i got left on delivered for almost an hour, she had to go shower, and that was the last i heard from her.
i had such a bad day today and honestly all i wanted to do was just talk to her. but i had to swallow texting her that “we barely talked today” and send her a “goodnight i love you” text because i didnt wanna seem so clingy. she’s more avoidant than i am, ik that for a fact, but i hate when i can feel it, yk?
i think im overthinking things and i just needed to talk to her because of my aforementioned bad day. i miss her so much… i hate distance but idk how to deal with it. i just need some reassurance that everything will be okay…