r/ruminationsyndrome

Does anyone else with RS have OCD surrounding food? There isn’t a lot of research about how you would treat that

I feel like I need someone to talk to, just someone to share and try and help reduce my anxiety around food and activities. Recently I’ve been struggling with anxiety, I’ve been trying to micromanage every outcome and find myself worrying about how much I’m eating day to day, generally I have no problem eating healthy, but I’ve been seeing food as more of a reward, or if I feel like I eat too much even if it’s a healthy food I force myself to burn it off. I find myself trying to earn my food and it’s been impacting every single day of my life, it’s all I think about. It’s impacted my relationship with my family and even school stuff… I don’t know what to do but I feel that having someone to talk to would help. I’ve been told I lost weight, but a lot of it was muscle, I’m still trying to stay active in the gym and recover what I had lost but it’s so frustrating and hard with poor sleep, it’s even been affecting my gastrointestinal system too, I searched it up and the closest thing I found to it is rumination disorder. After every meal I find myself regurgitating my food, it comes out exactly how it came in, no acid no nothing but it’s been really hard to keep my food down as well. I feel like I’m sharing too much but it feels nice to at least put this somewhere I can see it visually/let it all out…

I’m 20 years old, 174 cm tall, and weigh 54 kg. I’m male.
The medication I currently take is olanzapine. I don’t smoke.
I had a gastric ulcer in the past. I’m currently seeing a psychiatrist and have been diagnosed with somatic symptom disorder related to my current symptoms.
My symptoms started about four years ago. During a sports competition, I became very nervous and started gagging. Since then, whenever my mouth becomes completely tasteless, I start gagging.
Because of this, I constantly keep juice or candy with me. Plain water or other things without much taste don’t work for me.
I have had several medical examinations, including an upper endoscopy and a brain CT scan, but nothing abnormal was found. I’m currently receiving treatment from a psychiatrist, but it hasn’t helped very much so far.
However, I noticed something interesting. During dental treatment, I was given IV sedation and put to sleep. After waking up from the sedation, I didn’t gag at all for about 5–6 hours. This happened all three times I received IV sedation for dental treatment.
Could the fact that I didn’t gag after IV sedation be a clue about what is causing my symptoms?
Has anyone experienced something similar, or does anyone know of a condition that could cause this? I would especially appreciate any input from doctors or people who have experienced similar symptoms.