Why does nobody believe me
So all this began in late 2024 when my then roommate and their partner both got diagnosed with scabies, at that time I didn't even know what scabies is. Little did I know that from that moment life would not have been the same as before, as their doctor advised we all did a 'preventive' cure during their permetrin treatment. So far so good, didn't show any symptoms and just went on with my life. A couple months pass and I start feeling a light itch on my ankels, at the beginning I thought nothing of it but I still was going to a dermatologist for another reason so I also asked her to check me for scabies (this was in march 2025) and she immediately told I didn't have anything and should not worry. A couple months pass and itching comes and goes, some days its worse and some days its better, but it has 'spread' on my genitals, in between my butt and I start to notice some red spots on my body that come and go in about a couple days. I start to get worried, I talk to my friends and ask them if they too have started to have these strange symptoms, they all say that they're not itching and that i should not worry. I try to convince myself that if it is scabies my 5 housemates should too experience some kind of symptoms. Summer comes and I do one round of permethrin whit out a diagnosis. Summer goes and It all stays the same so i and two of my housemates go to a std derm clinic for a dermoscopy, and they find nothing. In this time itching stays the same and I really can't determine if 'itching gets worse at night'. Anyway my anxiety has not diminished, I start to notice my roommates scratching themselves and I start to notice some strange red dots on them (I know Im starting to get crazy): I do another round of permethrin. some time passes and in January 2026 I go to a derm to ask for another dermoscopy... they find nothing and give a cream for itchy skin. Whit the moisturizer it gets better but as soon as i quit it gets worse and I feel like i am at point zero again. One morning I wake up whit a strange rash on my left leg and I start losing it.. I go to my general practitioner as he says to me that it MIGHT be scabies. I do another round of permetrhin... in that period i was staying at my parents house and they two deny any symptoms. My dad Itches and has red spots all over their legs but their derm said it was a form of psoriasis. I start getting very anxious and sad because I feel like I am this contagious monster who is getting all their family and friends involved with this.
I went again to the std clinic a couple months ago and they found nothing. I still feel itchy and I'm still convinced its scabies, but I feel nobody wants to hear me or believe me because nobody wants to deal with this. Am I going crazy? Am I completely delusional? What should I do? My mental health has been crushed by this thing.