r/sexual_assault

when i was about 5-6, me and my family took a trip to florida to visit her family. i specifically remember going into my uncles room who was around 16 at the time to look at his pet turtle. when he came in the room he called me a “big girl” because i was wearing pull ups. he proceeded to pull my pants and my diaper down to touch and lick my privates. this continued on when my moms family came down to visit us. he brought me and my younger brother who was about 4 into a closet. he then proceeded to touch me in front of him and i had asked why he didn’t do this to my brother and his response was “because you’re a girl”. he had also tried kissing my tongue which i was disgusted by and remember using mouthwash immediately after for around 10 minutes. i ended up telling my mom which she beat the shit out of him. i am now 18 and as a result i am extremely hyper sexual and feel like it affects me mentally in some ways.

My 25 yo sister is drunk, spending time with me over at my house for the weekend . She was apologizing for being drunk, and I told her that it’s all good, and that’s what brothers are for. She began biting me on my hand, fingers, and body. She was joking around at first, and I did tell her to stop over and over, but she continued anyway.
Then began to become frisky and grabbed me by my penis, while biting hard in different areas. This whole time, my penis was erect, and through her grabbing it, caused pre-ejaculatory fluids to come out soaking my shorts.
She then after said that I deserved it, and I was being weird. multiple bites broke skin. And some of her punches and slaps left bruises. She’s since said that she apologizes for being mean, and she’s left the living room to the guest bedroom

What the fuck just happened. I’m so confused and hurt.

Me F at 9 years old was sexually abused by my 15 year old brother over a period of about 6 months. He strategically set the scene as a “game” and I experienced sexual acts before I even knew what they meant. During one occasion he also sexually abused another child in our street who was my age, he had us in our parents bed instructing us to have sex, of course we were too young to actually do it we were still made to simulate it
These experiences have caused me so much pain and trauma and ultimately robbed me of years where sex for me meant shame
I’m now 47 and it still lives in me

Today I got sexually harassed. To be more specific, someone touched my butt.
But what angered me the most was the fact that I thought I did everything right, everything I could. I didn't go out late, I didn't party or drink (not that I say that if someone does that that wrong - no, it's not). When it happened, I immediately sought help, trying to find camera footage and report it. But all I got was that his face isn't clear and they can't identify him, and that the fact he touched me could be a mistake because it happened so fast, even though the elevator button is miles away. I also told this to a friend because I can't bear this all by myself. Seemingly, I did everything I could. BUT I STILL DIDN'T GET THE CLOSURE OR THE HELP I NEED.
So here I am crying my eyeballs out, and scared to go outside because it happened right where I live. Because I feel helpless. I have always hated men since I was very little, so I tried to minimize contact with them. I feel grossed out just by them looking at me in a slightly creepy way. Not all men, whatever, yeah, I still love my dad, my brother, but they are not feminists in any way, so I can't trust them to tell them entirely either.
And most importantly, I felt bad for women, or victims of sexual assault, as well as myself to live in a society where some men can't keep their f*cking hands off others.
Does anyone have any advice on how to get through this and go out to the place I got assaulted again, because I need to go through that elevator almost every f*cking day, and I can't be scared like this forever.