r/sexuality

Hi, I’m 20 in the northern Nevada area. I’m in a 4 year committed relationship with a women I love to death.

But I’m bisexual. I get the craving for a dick in my mouth every so often and have to do mental gymnastics to stop myself from cheating on my women. During breaks in the relationship I have explored and I know what I’m missing out on lol. I jerk off to gay porn and get my itch off that way but it’s just so frustrating tk see men id suck the soul out of and not be able to do anything about it.

Once again, I love my women and I throughly enjoy sex with her. Just I have these fantasies I can’t seem to shake. No she doesn’t know I’m bisexual and has made a number of remarks that she is 1000% against ever opening the relationship.

Any advice? I know long term id rather a family and kids then to be only with men. Hence why I’m still with her.

i’m a woman, absolutely adore the thought of men, the thought of romantic relationships with men etc..
95% of my celebrity crushes are men.

but

i would most likely never date a man ever again.
if i were to date a man i would have HIGH standards.

i’ve never dated a woman before, but i would highly consider it, in fact i’ve mentioned it several times.

and when i think back on crushes i have had in person, not celebrities from 4th grade to now, they’ve all been women.

i’m so extremely confused and i have no idea how to identify what i am.

i don’t know if i align with bisexuality because i would most likely want to date only women, i don’t know if i align with lesbian because i am very attracted to men and i definitely don’t align with straight.