r/spiritguides

I dreamed of a thin pale woman with shaggy dark  hair. Her black tights looked like the ones my wife wears. She was sitting on a table. She was hyper real in how vivid she appeared, and somehow she was familiar. I knew her and had seen her before even though I could not place where.

I was extremely attracted to her and I wanted to worship her. I lowered myself beneath Her and approached Her from below, worshipfully and deliberately. She was inviting me to do so. I began to give her oral sex over the black tights. Then I removed the tights and had direct contact. Felt amazing. I had so much reverence and worship of Her. This went on for a while. At this point I looked up and saw sexual satisfaction in her eyes. At that point I stood up and took out my penis. Her legs hung off the table, she was ready. I had sex with her. Then I woke up. Next day I was exhausted. I felt like so much energy left me but I also felt grounded and healed. Her hair was kind of shaggy in the way Alice Cullen’s is in Twilight except long, down her back.

My life changed after this.

Who do you think she is?

I think she is a Goddess because after this I moved towards worship of Aphrodite and Inanna and lost any desire to worship any male God. I feel she approached me as some type of initiation

Long story short - I’ve never asked to see my guides. However many or little there are - I believe they exist and am quite happy to vocally communicate. I don’t know if it’s a little scary to me to actually see who they are?

Anyway - it’s been on my mind and I thought why not. Couldn’t sleep and I’ve been thinking about it and have been curious. I asked to see what they look like and to show me something of them. Eyes closed in the dead of night and the only thing that came through was vivid purple/lilac colours. In and out like a light shining between black. This hasn’t ever happened ever to me even when trying to sleep - I thought a light was shining in my window. Nothing pitch black.

Like an iridescent purple seeping in and out like light. I have no clue what this means or if it means anything at all. I didn’t see a face or body of any sort so maybe they don’t want to reveal themselves!

Any info would be great!