My boyfriend is manic and broke up with me. I don’t know what to do
I am a divorced 46 year old and I have a 56 year old boyfriend of more than 3 years. He abused alcohol and was diagnosed with bipolar disorder before we met and went off his medication shortly after we met. He was fine the first 2 years but then starting having manic episodes. Over the past year, his mother and I have urged him to seek treatment but he does not feel the prior diagnosis was accurate and attributes the issues in the past to his alcoholism. He begrudgingly has seen a practitioner and been prescribed medication but did not take it. He recently saw another psychiatrist at his mom’s request but said they simply told him to recommit to AA which he has gotten away from when his manic episodes started. He broke up with me abruptly Monday night and I am struggling. I have supported and loved and adored him completely these past 3 years and I don’t know how I could have loved him more and I really believed that when he is not manic, I feel that from him. When we are together, it is magic. I am heartbroken and I need to know if he will wake up and come back. I haven’t reached out because I know I cannot reason with a manic mind, but I fear he will not come back to me. Does anyone have any advice? I have never posted anything like this before and created an account here just to do this because I don’t want to talk to friends or family because I don’t want him to be looked at in a bad way. My circle of people are very protective and I am afraid they will view him differently because I am hurting so much.