Practicality over my dream
Parang soon, depression will took my life. Nad-depress na ako right now, not because of some shallow emotions but because of my academic timeline.
I was reconsidered applicant at Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila (PLM), accepted ako through reconsideration pero hindi priority course yung nakuha ko which is Nursing. They gave me BSED-Eng. They've stated na reconsidered applicants will automatically denied yung LOI, or parang request to change program. So the only option for me is to shift after a year.
Since wala ng other option, as in wala nakong option. PLM was my last resort. We can't afford private schools to pursue my desire to be a nurse. Napaka sakit. Ilang weeks ko ng iniiyak 'to.
Shifting at PLM was never been easy, they said. Uulit ka ng 1st year, I don't mind kahit hindi ko makasabay grumaduate mga ka-batch ko, as long as I pursue the course I wanted. They also told me na walang kasiguraduhan ang shifting process kasi ubusan ng slots. It's a 50/50 chance for me. Risk it or lose it literal.
Maybe for others sasabihin na "ang babaw naman" but for me, it's my future right there. I prepared for Nursing for almost 7 years. Yes, pinag hirapan ko makakuha ng high grades during my Junior and Senior year kasi nga sabi ko priority of state universities are those students who got high grades. I took stem as my senior strand, kahit ayoko kasi I hate math and science — but because of my love for nursing, pinilit ko, tiniis ko, isinam-buhay ko.
And I come to realized, ganito ba talaga maging mahirap? Kahit pangarap mo kailangan mo bitawan. It's more of practicality over a dream. Napaka hirap maging mahirap.
Kaya to those who given the privilege to study, pag butihin niyo. Dahil napakaraming gustong makapag aral.