AITA for wishing to express my emotions more
Hello, I’m new to Reddit but I’ve seen a few yt videos of people reacting to Reddit’s and I pretty much know a bit on some abbreviations, anyways, I’m a school girl and still with my parents and older sister, every morning for school my sister (who we’ll call ‘Kate’) has issues w getting up, I understand she isn’t a morning person so when we talk to her in the morning, we get nothing but attitude, it went so far as 2 weeks go we had our phones taken off us bc I wasn’t in a good mood and so we had an argument in dads car that morning, I was irritated bc she later after school she left the house annoyed bc of the punishment so she wouldn’t have gotten it back until Monday a few days ago, but no, a little sorry cuts it back to the original punishment for us both, 1 week, this annoyed me since she did way worse than me but ik if I argued more then I’d have my punishment extended, fast forward to this week, it’s been raining all week here in the UK so I can’t bike w my friend, she’s been fine all this week, no arguments until tonight, she was at her bfs after school (btw me n her don’t go same school, long story short, bullying is a bitch and made her move schools) I was sending her vlogs about 2 ppl in my friend group who was annoying me, when she got home she was asking me what happened, we was talking and it smhw switched to her GCSE’s coming up, and Covid was around in yr 6 for her so she didn’t have to do sats so her GCSE’s aren’t gonna be as bad, but for me, when I was in yr6 I had to do my sats so the tests for me in the future will be worse, not to mention I have overdue hw to do and at the time I lost track of time and needed to do my dinner, I was doing my dinner, but bc of this extra news added to some stress, their fore I was a bit grumpy while making my dinner, Kate tries helping me and I try joke about and say ‘happy now?’ When I did what she suggested but ig my tone was still moody so we ended up arguing, telling me to not roll my eyes, mom tells us to stop but I could tell it was aimed at me (she wouldn’t hear me out when I tried explaining what I was trying to do). It felt unfair that she can get away with being angry but I can’t?
I apologised to my mom earlier about my attitude but I explained how it felt unfair that people in this house can show their anger but I can’t. Feels like I’m stuck being the happy child who stays out of my sisters arguments w my parents but the second I argue she can butt in like she’s my mother!?
I forgot to mention I can be a sensitive and emotional person so when anger comes out I can cry super easily and I had to wait until a few minutes ago to cry quietly alone in peace, not for long, idk why I do and smtms I question if it’s smth I can change but rn I just need to know,
AITA for wanting to express my emotions more?
Sorry if I over shared or gave too much info, hope you have a nice rest of your morning/afternoon/evening.