I think I found my soulmate!
My dating life has been one train wreck after another that has left me rather traumatized. I felt like I was never going to find someone for me, until recently. I have been dating my boyfriend for 4 months now and it has been the most magical experience. The one thing that really solidified that for me was the other day when we were play fighting. I grew up with 3 brothers and he grew up fighting so roughhousing is basically foreplay for us.
However this time he had me in some wrestling move that had me completely pinned and for some reason every traumatic thing I’ve been through surfaced so quickly my body went into panic mode. He noticed and immediately let me go. I couldn’t even formulate the words to describe how I was feeling because it came on so strong and I truly couldn’t understand why I felt the way I did. He didn’t question me, didn’t get angry at me for stopping the “fun”. Just sat with me, comforted me, and calmed me down. While this may seem like the bare minimum to some, it means the world to me, as someone who usually ends up with jerks who don’t care how I’m feeling.
He was so patient and caring and loving and I fell even deeper in love with him.
This also isn’t his first time dealing with my traumatic emotions and handling them with so much patience and tenderness. I’m in therapy and on medications so I can have a better control over my anxiety and emotions and not trauma dumping on him, but I’m so happy to know that it’s not a burden on him and he truly does care about me.