Life Is One Sick Joke
23M struggling with social atrophy, barley hold connection's & just cant help but wonder why everyday's the same thing & for what, to make money, to bring more people here so they can experience the same things we do, to keep the cycle going, seriously what are we doing here & what is the point of all of it, is there even any point to it, how are we so cool with putting up with the same monotony all the time & when you do mention topics like these, the first thing people are gonna think is that person's crazy, because we gotten too used to the programming "called life!"
(Chuckles) you know like whats so good of getting up so early every monday just to go somewhere you dont wanna be, putting up with co workers who live in their so called corporate dream where i just see it as a prison, just like this whole life is with no bars in place, because if you could have anything you wanted right now, we wouldnt have to go through embarrassing situations trying to prove our worth in a world thats brutal, chaotic & just straight up annoying.
I just can't digest how people would wanna keep this going for ever longer subjecting to frivolous conditions, it makes zero sense, & even if someone wanted out of this life, youre gonna get called a coward & a softie all because you see for what it is, which isnt an easy thing to do as our nervous systems make it difficult to do so, its like a self defense mechanism that forces you to tolerate this monstrosity, its like being addicted to our own suffering when we create it additionally on top of oursleves, people like to say that ohhhh life is beautiful, life is a gift, oh why wouldn't anyone want to be part of this atrophising existence, because theres nothing to gain, at the end of the day nothing that you do comes with you.
Life goes on with or without us, it couldn't care any less about our existence, just like any other animal, they dont go worrying about whats happening in the world or which celebrity deceased or how much money they got, we are literally the only one that does this, its embarrassing, & despite how advanced we like to boast on about, we still cant solve our own problems, then people wonder oh why is the world full of problems blah blah & that, because we are just not as good as we like to think, we still cause more & more problems, we still have homeless, we still have impoverished environments, why perpetuate the cycle when this is literally what we continue to do, hence we dont even fully understand oursleves, yet people wanna keep it going, what a joke.
Anyways how are you's getting through it & what do you's do to cope.
Thats all for now.