Heart broken — no closure
Met someone on hinge .. seemed amazing, just clicked and felt right.. then got this msg and then saw her back on hinge .. no closure , no reasons, using her kids as an excuse .. I’m 45 and so sick of this dating game.. I want her but hate her at the same time..she said she would spend my birthday with me, then dropped this a week before .. I was numb, worst birthday where I cried all day… I’m not a bad person. I work hard, career focussed, and want to share moments with someone I can feel comfortable with.. I am broken and I want to see if this is a trend, how can stop this happening again and how do I move on… I’m putting it out there and want help.. it’s not easy and worst part, I drive past her house every week cause it close to my new work place.. I can’t avoid it and it breaks me every time.. think she is with someone else, I feel sick .. been burying myself at work, and now my dad is not well.. I’m alone in a flat and .. wkends have been so bad . It goes by just sitting on the couch, watching tv and speaking to not a soul.. i feel I’ve wasted my life..and things are not making sense .. been taking lotsa meds to manage the anxiety and to sleep.. going home to help my mum cause of my dad over next few weeks .. but yeah.. just looking for positive thoughts .. pls 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼