Moving out of Arab household as an ex muslim woman
I don’t know if anyone will see this and ik my grammar isn’t the best rn I’m js lazy 😒. Anyway, recently this past year I’ve been thinking about my future and realized that Arab culture expects women to stay at their families houses until they get an arranged marriage so they can move with a man they barely know or like that might even end up abusive and I’ve been having serious mental issues because of the idea of it and i think the best thing for me to do in my future is maybe move out and live on my own and maybe get married in my mid 30s but the thing is it’s that I don’t want my family to shame my parents for it, i dont want to be a disappointment or a failure in their eyes either, and i don’t even care if anyone else insults ME bc i expect it, but it also really hurts knowing that my family and friends will be disappointed and maybe even disgusted simply bc i dont wanna be a trad wife. Sometimes i wish i wasnt even born at all, its horrible. And i need advice on whether or not i should do it anyway. I feel like im drowning everyday.