I stress eat
I stress-eat.
I gain weight. Then I look at myself and think, “It can’t get any worse,” and eat again. And trust me, it does get worse.
I’ve been stuck in this cycle for several years now. I try not to let my weight go over 100 kg, but I’m constantly on the edge.
I’m embarrassed to exercise. I’m afraid to go somewhere to work out because I live in Asia, where everyone seems so tiny and slim. I’m embarrassed to go back to the dance classes I used to attend. Sometimes I’m even ashamed to leave the house because I might run into someone I know, and they’ll see that I’ve gained so much weight.
I’m 170 cm (5’7”) and currently weigh 86 kg (190 lbs). I’ve managed to lose weight from 95 kg (209 lbs), but I’ve started binge eating again.
Today, for example, I ate an entire box of pastries and a ton of noodles, and now I feel absolutely awful.
What do you do when you’re constantly thinking about food and hate your body and yourself?