My heart hurts
I am 15 years old . And I weigh around 108 kg . I am 5'3 . I wish to be loved. I have parents. They should be punished . Anyway. I am dark skinned....fat . Ugly.
I hate to break this to you. I don't know why Birthdays are never celebrated. Just a cake and buying me clothes 'sometimes' because I think birthdays come 7 or 8 times a year and my parents only missed this 'one' . Idk. When I turned 14 ....I had a lot of hopes for my birthday...but what I got is totally pathetic.
And btw I am not a spoiled brat but that does not mean I don't expect things . We are living a very comfortable life . So it's not a money problem.
On my 14th birthday you know what new clothes I wore? No. I didn't. Because my mother 'forgot' to buy me birthday clothes. Yes it's totally my fault that I was born on that day though I reminded them 4 days ago. I need to remind? Wow.
My cake? Stale from the previous day in the bakery . Then bought for me. Not my choice. nothing.
My gifts are excellent!! My mother gave me nothing since she bought the damn stale cake. Of course.
My father's gift?! One dollar chocolate.
Very nice right? Isn't it? It was never about the cake or the chocolate or the clothes. I told her to go to a restaurant to do dinner. She said no. Because my sister was not here as she is in another city. So no. She said it is postponed. But I don't know when it is gonna be held because it had been almost over 2 years and my sister has been here quite a few times.
On my 13th birthday? Oh god . My mother and sister gifted me a cheap doll. I hated it so much and a bag with such low quality. Oh god.. perhaps the most it will be ...it couldn't be more than 2 dollars. We still didn't go to the restaurant even when I asked .
Both on my 12th , 13th , 14th and 15th birthday my father did not wish me happy birthday. Perhaps I don't deserve it.
On my 15th birthday both gave me nothing but yeah I got a cake of my choice that they didn't like. Yes!!!
And now my birthday is coming....my heart craves...to its own right of soul to get a good birthday.... please lord. Please.....I want a good birthday too. I want presents and a good day too!!!! Please lord please.
I hope I die before them . They are the worst parents in the world.
This was never about the birthday.
Fuck these shitty people. Don't have kids if u can't take care of them.
And most certainly don't compare those kids who have good parents. You should be slashed with a belt 1000 times. Then perhaps I will feel better.
They ruined my childhood and never ever played with me. While I saw all the children playing with their parents. Never respected me a bit.
I will say I deserve every bit of respect. And u all should be under my foot so I can squeeze u under my shoe . And throw u away.
The day I turn enough to earn I will change my number and place . Maybe get a new identity and never ever and ever meet my paths with you.
Fuck. You .
You were the worst mother and father this world has seen .
I hope u rot in hell .
I didn't tell u to have me.
Fuck you so much
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