I think my dad M50 might be grooming me F16 (F16)
Am I insane? I think my dad M50 is trying to groom me F16. I’m just gonna lay it all out there. He’s tried to kiss me and put his tongue in my mouth. He came in the shower while I was having a shower. He came in at night and searched up incest related things on my X (twitter) account on MY PHONE (only about our dad and daughter dynamic) and didn’t even close the tab so I think he wanted me to see it. That same night he cuddled me while I was supposedly sleeping which is something we’ve never done. Overall he’s just a fucking creep.
He sends me money weekly as an allowance and I think because of that he thinks that’s is an “invite” for him to try do stuff with me. I’ve already told him before that uncomfortable with the stuff he does and he still fucking does it. The morning after he cuddled me and searched that stuff up I texted him not to do this to me and I’d never talk to him again if he did. He said we would talk about it but we still haven’t but I don’t even wanna talk to him. I’m done. I’m never speaking to him again. Our whole middle ground relationship of me trying to ignore him being so fucking weird is done.
I’ll admit I do sexual things with people online and he found out a while ago because he never gives me any privacy. And ever since then he’s just been coming home at night when everyone’s asleep to check on me and just acting really weird. Hugging me way too long and after checking my phone saying he feels “jealous” like what the actual fuck what the hell did I even do for him to be like this. I cry every time I think about it. Like my dad that I’ve loved for all my life is doing this shit to me. Fuck. He’s never gonna touch me again. Ever again. No more so called “innocent” hugs I thought i gave him clause he’s my dad and I love him. Turns out this entire time absolutely nothing was innocent.
He’s probably gonna see this because again I have no privacy but I don’t even care anymore. He can take everything away at this point as long as he stays the hell away from me.
Fuck my life I’m so overwhelmingly done.