u/-Celes-

40 years old, laparascopic hysterectomy (keeping ovaries) with possible endometriosis excision (depending on what they find, if anything) on June 8.

My biggest fear is probably a silly one: What if they don't find anything "wrong?"

I just want this to have all been worth something, you know?

Yes, not having painful periods ever again will be nice. Or excessive clots. And not having to worry about bleeding through my underwear or taking 1-2 days off from work each month because I am miserable.

But I just want so badly to feel validated. Surgeon said ultrasound looked good other than a simple cyst on my left ovary (which he will remove if it's still there). He suspects adenomyosis because of my symptoms, but nothing showed on the ultrasound. Who knows. 

I'm terrified that the answer will be, "Everything looked great in there."

And honestly, how stupid is that?

It's a roller coaster. Hot flash, adrenaline surge, 119/68.

Calm back down, hot flash ends, 106/58.

Wash, rinse, repeat.

Baseline BP is on the low 106/58 end. Has been for months now.

Pee? Yellow. Always. No matter how much water I drink.

It's like I'm chronically dehydrated. To the point where my fingertips prune episodically.

I have a Rx for 100mg prometrium/micronized progesterone. I'm not currently taking it (total hysterectomy with endometriosis excision in one month- I need to call surgeon Monday to see if he will allow me to go back on it or if I will have to wait until post-op recovery now).

Can anyone relate? I did not think this crap affected blood pressure too... Or if it did, I thought it'd be high, not low...

I'm almost 41 years old, if that matters. Early days, methinks.