My best friend is draining me
TW: suicidal topics, sh described slightly
I 19F and my bsf 18F have been friends for 4 years and very very close friends for over 1. in a short sum, she’s had multiple attempts and struggled with mental health for a long time even before me. In january when i was reinfected with a disease i had before that was very hard to walk and be active with, she also began to have pre serious physical issues. They got more serious and worse over time. Her mental health also began to take a dive. she didn’t self harm for months and was doing okay then it got worse. Physically wise she’d have seizures, walk strangely, be in constant pain, tremors, tics, etc. We believe she has FND. They weren’t problems for me i’d help her all i could. When i had to go away for week days to get treatment somewhere a few hours from me we’d be spending less time together. So her mental health took an EVEN BIGGER plummet. she has very few friends besides me and is very dependent on me. She cut herself 200 times and counted, then went to a mental hospital willingly for a bit. She was diagnosed with BPD and Bipolar and got meds. I was hoping it’d get better. It did not. She was having bowel issues and instead of contacting a doctor or going, she decided to immediately stop taking antipsychotics ABRUPTLY and all her other meds. I tried to tell her not to she wouldn’t listen. she began to see manic and impulse bought things with money she didn’t have, cut her hair, all things she’s done lots before. But then out the blue today she tells me she tried to overdose (for the 5th time). She just started dating one of my friends as well and he isn’t handling this well. I love her more then anything but our friendship has been nothing but stress and worry for me and some of our other friends, she seems to constantly make things worse on herself, and no matter what i say she won’t listen, if i try to ask for space she’d probably attempt again honestly, not sure exactly what i’m looking for, answers, a perspective, an opinion? i’m willing to give more details if asked.
TL;DR: my friend with BPD and Bipolar has becoming significantly harder to help and more dependent on those around her, won’t allow anyone to help and is becoming draining while i already am going through treatments hours away. I love her but don’t know how to cope with this.