First post ever on this app (It confuses me very much but I'll learn)
A lot a bit of backstory about me
I don't think I have NPD but I do suspect mild autism and bipolar disorder as my mother has it too also, The hoarding is something I'm fully aware of but it is fairly minor in the sense of how bad it gets, Was diagnosed with anxiety already at about 12 or maybe 13 but it's been apparent in every memory ever since I had consciousness, I had some sort of half delusion about being a prophet once about a year back- (I'm not religious funnily enough >:p) -after going out during a long depression months after a major trauma (SA) but the narcissistic traits never left with that though I guess you could say they're more technically mellow than full on lord and savioring
It's kinda of a loop since I've aways been an anxious martyr so I sort of realized myself and found an actual sense of self worth rather than just having to take what life dishes me and SO because I've done nothing most of my life it sort of leaves me to believe in the back of my mind regardless of logic I'm better than everyone else simply because I've done nothing wrong
Anyways I'm unsure if I technically belong with the crew and all but I'm here now. I can't help but smile at every little thing I read here, It makes me feel warm with this sense of community and like I matter in the way I wanna matter even if it's just a mantra everyone sees or something like that... It makes me feel happy and not judged
Besides that happy holidays people and I hope despite everything you're having a wonderful day out there in the world 💕 :-]