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Hej. Szukam nowych znajomych. Choruję na zaburzenia lękowe, przez które od roku prawie nie wychodzę z domu, dlatego moje życie towarzyskie praktycznie umarło.

Na co dzień jestem księgową, ale w wolnym czasie lubię czytać książki sci fi, grać w gry (jestem dużo fanką serii Final Fantasy i Persona), gotować, robię na drutach, rysuję, słucham podcastów.

Nie jestem jeszcze w stanie wychodzić z domu (wciąż nie mogę znaleźć idealnych leków, ale pracuję też nad tym na terapii), dlatego super byłoby poznać kogoś online. Tęsknię za ludźmi.

Mam partnera, nie interesują mnie relacje romantyczne.

Hi there.
I (34f) just decided to reach out since tommorow I'm about to start vorioxetine on the dosage of 5mg. I feel extremaly nervous about it since other meds i the past seemed like making my symptoms worse. In the last year I was on sertraline, fluoxetine, escitalopram and duloxetine. I think coming off fluoxetine was the worst experience of my life with severe akathisia to the point where I was only able to lay down with everything racing inside of me and I could only scream internally. I had to talk myslef into going to the bathroom even.
For now my main problem is somatized GAD. The only thing I'm able to do outside is a short walk with my dog but even then I can get a panic attack. Apart from that I go out with my partner for groceries and that's all my "outside" activity. I feel anxiety in my body 24/7 without apparent reason for it. I tried psychoterapies but without much luck as well.
I also have extreme anxiety when it comes to any new meds. I've been lurking this subreddit and despite many good reviews there is also a lot of bad ones. My main fear is the second date with akathisia, I just want to cry just thinking about.
So tbh I dunno why I post this, maybe a bit of encouragement would help me and reason with this dreadful feeling inside.