Accidentally spoiled the gender surprise… no one else is letting me tell them
Like the title. I’m (33F) 19 weeks pregnant with my first and we were hoping to keep the sex of the baby a surprise until the birth. I accidentally read it in my patient portal bc I’m an idiot. I called my mom to vent and she went “don’t tell me! I still want the surprise!” And she hung up. SHE HUNG UP ON ME. Texted my sister in law a bit later and she said “your mom told me you knew and decided not to tell anyone so that’s exciting! That will still be a surprise!” But I didn’t decide that, my mom decided that for me. My husband doesn’t even want me to tell him. And he really loves surprises so I feel like an asshole for wanting to tell him. So I’m the only one who has this surprise ruined and I feel really alone in it.
I’m just really mad at myself for ruining it and disappointed and also kind of mad at everyone else for deciding it’s more important for them to get this surprise that I wanted and can’t have (ABOUT THE BABY IM CARRYING) than support me when I’m upset. Am I being unreasonable??
The gender also isn’t what I pictured and I can’t tell if I’m disappointed in the result or just disappointed that I know it. I’d always pictured myself only having boys for some reason and my husband is 1000% convinced it’s a boy… everyone in his family has had boys first, he just literally can’t picture any other outcome. but it’s a girl. He was trying to cheer me up earlier and was saying stuff like “we already knew it would be a boy, you’re upset over nothing! You might as well just tell me it’s a boy, it wasn’t even going to be a surprise for me bc I’m soooo positive it’s a boy!” Which just made me start crying even harder. So how on top of already being upset I’m worried he’s going to be disappointed.
Edit: fixed a typo